Day 11: A Deceased Person

Dear Grandpa,
Hi! I really miss you!! I miss you coming over all the time. I miss stopping by your house while taking a walk in town, and you always giving everyone an oatmeal cookie except me because I didn’t like them so you always had a chocolate chip one just for me. I miss you coming over to watch baseball. I miss going to your house on Halloween for you to see our costumes and you giving us money because you didn’t get any candy. I miss sitting on your couch or playing the piano for hours because I didn’t have my chair in your house so I couldn’t do anything else. I miss you coming over to get your weekly bag of Jolly Ranchers or Cream Savers, I haven’t had either since you left. I even miss the endless discussions between you, dad and (kind of) I about astronomy and physics, I say kind of because I usually didn’t understand half of what you guys were talking about. I’m sad that I didn’t get to see you very much your last few months…and that I never got to say goodbye. I’m sorry I didn’t go see you in the hospital…that I didn’t call and say I love you… I miss you so much and not seeing you or talking to you near the end will be one of my biggest regrets the rest of my life. I love you and wish you were still here. I can’t wait to see you again.
I love you, goodbye…
~Caity

Day 10: Someone You Don’t Talk To As Much As You’d Like

Dear person who shall remain anonymous,
Hello, I really wish we would talk more often. I hate that I don’t get to see you all the time anymore and I miss being able to just go talk to you everyday. Now I’m always trying to come up with excuses to talk to you and I feel pathetic doing so but you always make me happy no matter what I’m feeling like. I love our conversations even if pointless. You’re the one I try to  talk to when I’m feeling down, because it makes me feel better instantly :).
Thanks for always being there, Cait

Day 9: Someone You Wish You Could Meet

Dear Tim Gunn,
If I could meet anyone in the whole world it would, without a doubt, be you. I absolutely love you and think you are just fantastic. I am currently going to school for fashion design but have muscular dystrophy, which a lot of times makes it extremely difficult but when I feel like giving up and just doing something easier I think of you and what you would say…”Make it work”. It gets me through a lot so thank you. I have often said I would love to be on Project Runway, even if it was just for you to tell me my stuff is awful haha. I wouldn’t care as long as I got to meet you. Okay I would care but still. You are so inspirational to me, and I hope one day to be able to meet you.
Your biggest fan, Caitlin

Day 8: Your Favorite Internet Friend

Dear Ashley,
I love that we knew each other but actually became friends through twitter. It was great knowing that someone out there was going through so much similar things as me. When you would tweet I would know exactly what you were talking about and could relate so much it was ridiculous! Then we started talking about music and well that’s constantly the key thing that always brings us back to tweeting each other. I’m really glad that I was a creeper and randomly started following you on twitter.
Thanks for being awesome, Cait

Day 7: Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend

Well I don’t have one so…yeah, I’m just skipping this one.

Day 6: A Stranger

Dear stranger,
Hello. I don’t know who you are but if you are reading this I hope you are doing well. I hope in the future things go your way. Have a good day!
~Cait:)

Day 5: Your Dreams

Dear dreams,
You are so incredibly big. I don’t even know what all to write but I know that one day you will come true :)
~Cait

Day 4: Your Siblings Or Closest Relatives

Dear Eric, Megan, John and Macy,
Man there’s a lot of you, hahaha. I miss you guys terribly! I miss being all together. It was really great when we all went to the mall this summer together, even if we only got to stay in the mall for like 20 minutes. We need to do more things like this. I feel like we’ve grown so far apart over the last few years, and I know that has a lot to do with me going to school so far away, but I want this to change. I want it to be like in movies where we’re all friends and call each other and do things with each other. So you should definitely come visit, that’d be a great start, kthanks.
Love, Cait

Day 3: Your Parents

Dear Mom & Dad,
Hello. I miss you guys! I wish you would come visit more often. I know we have our issues but I love you both! You have been there for me through thick and thin, and I know you always will be. I don’t say it enough but thank you. Thank you for all you have done for me.
Love, Cait

Day 2: Your Crush

Oops, I definitely forgot I was doing this...so I'm going to try and catch up.

Dear crush,
Hey, so um apparently I am supposed to write you a letter but I don’t know what to say because I would never actually do this, plus you’re probably never going to see this. I really like you because you’re basically awesome. No matter how I am feeling you always make me happy simply by being around. You make me happy and feel better about myself without even trying. We have so much in common it’s a little ridiculous but I think that’s what makes it so easy to like you. You’re such a great friend and I'm so glad we met. I wish you could read this just so you would know how grateful I am for our friendship and know that I wouldn’t trade it for anything…unless of course you felt the same way haha.
~Cait :)

30 Day Letter Challenge!/Day 1: Your Bestfriend

Okay, I’m giving in and doing the 30 day letter challenge, mainly out of boredom but oh well. I’ll try to stay on it so keep looking for new ones :)

Dear Bestestest Friend (Bethany),
Ello poppet! I miss you terribly! You’re the bestest friend I could ever ask for. There is so much I want to write in this but it would go on and on forever. You have made such an impact on me. You’re always there for me no matter what and I know I could count on you for anything. I love you, you’re my sister. I can’t imagine my life without you, which is why you need to keep fighting! I don’t know what I’d do without you here. You’re the one I tell everything to, you’re the one who is always there to make me feel better, you’re the one I need in my life. You have helped me in more ways than you can imagine. I love you Bethany Marie. You’re the best!
Love, Cait

Aug20, 2011

Hey! Sorry it's been so long, I've been busy/had no where to do this. So since I last wrote on this a lot has happened. I went to Georgia with my mom and sisters in June to play in the Premiere Cup for soccer, we lost but it was a ton of fun! Then we went to Florida for a few days. I loved it there, I kind of didn't want to come back. We saw my Aunt Lori and found a place where I could get down to the beach, it was amazing! I had a blast! I really want to go back but don't want to drive. It was such a long drive! Then we came back and the next week was my birthday. I got a Michael Kors wristlet! I was so excited! I also got Easy A which is one of my favorite movies, if you haven't seen it go rent it or borrow it from me! Then I had a dinner in Indy a couple weeks later to see everyone for my birthday, it was so much fun! There was like 20 people there, I am so glad that that many were able to make it! It was so good seeing everyone. That night Bri and Matt stayed at my house, we rented a movie and randomly got McDonald's at like 11 haha, and the next day we went to Little Mexico and the mall. It was so fun! It was the best birthday I've had in a while. The next day I actually moved at my mom's. It was just to the other side of town so it wasn't far but it was a long couple of days getting stuff situated. I didn't even unpack all my stuff before I moved back to school...I moved back the 17th and classes start Monday. I was so glad to be back! I missed being able to see my friends whenever. It's only been a couple days but it's already been fun. It's really different without everyone living in the same building but we're still seeing each other so I'm really happy. Even though it's going to be really different, I think it's going to be another great year! I really have the greatest friends ever!

~Cait:)

June9, 2011

Hey! So I just told someone I didn't have much to blog about but I was thinking about it and I kind of do actually. There's been some stuff bugging me lately and what other place to put it than right here? I mean I've shared everything else haha. So there are two people who are kind of driving me nuts this summer. I'm not going to mention names but if you guys read this you know who you are and you should knock it off. The first person use to be one of my best friends and now isn't talking to me for the stupidest reason, it's honestly the dumbest fight ever but they need to know I'm not letting them walk all over me anymore and talk crap about me so if they still want to be friends they need to put some effort into it because I'm tired of trying to fix friendships when the other person just makes it worse. I've tried apologizing and it somehow got turned into another session of calling me a bad friend. Well I'm done trying I miss you but apparently you don't want to be friends...whatever...your loss. The second person isn't near as bad but still kind of upsetting me. We were really good friends and now all of a sudden you're acting like you don't want to be anymore. I think I know why and if it's that reason you should know it's different now. I just want to go back to how things were. Whenever we are together you tease and make fun of me, which I know you do to everyone but this last time I saw you it was a little over board...after a while it gets old and some of it hurts. I wish we could just talk and be friends like we used to. Anywho...so last week a bunch of us went to the zoo and then around white river state park and then to the spaghetti factory for Leah's birthday. It was a lot of fun! I had a really great time, and it was good seeing everyone. Then Saturday we had 5 hours of soccer practice. It was a lot of fun. We are having practice again this Saturday, it's gonna be with circle city rollers which should help us because they are really good. Then next week we are going to Atlanta for nationals!! I'm so excited, I've never been to Atlanta. Then afterwards me and my family are going to Florida. I'm really excited for that, I need a vacation haha. And Natalie and her family are going too and I think we may be staying kind of close to each other, so that should be fun. Oh and my birthday is in 20 das!! Just sayin...haha. Well I'm gonna go for now see ya!

~Cait:)

May21, 2011

Wow, I haven't blogged in forever. Well I'm currently using my phone to write this because I finally remembered my password haha. So much yet so little has happened in the last month. We had finals and I did really well on them. I ended up getting an A- in astronomy which I still find hilarious because I barely went to class. My other grades were pretty good as well, which made me very happy. Natalie graduated and a bunch of us stayed and went to her graduation, it was extremely sad but I'm very happy for her at the same time. I am now at home and already bored out of my mind. The first week was pretty fun. I got to go to Little Mexico with my family, and then Matt came up one day and we went to the mall and then Little Mexico again haha, and then we had a soccer tournament, which we lost but it was still really fun. It was great getting to see people. This week has been extremely long. I literally haven't done anything. It's been kind of good in a way I guess, very relaxing, but very boring. I really miss everyone but often feel like it's a one way feeling. I want to text people and talk to them but then I feel annoying and I feel like they don't want to talk to me. But oh well, what can ya do? Well I'm gonna go for now. See ya
~Cait:)

April25, 2011

Wow I can't believe it's the 25th already! This month has gone by so fast! It's our last week of classes and then next week is finals. I'm glad but sad at the same time. I want to be out of class but I'm going to miss everyone a lot...This year has been incredibly amazing! I have met the greatest friends ever and I love them all. It's going to be so weird without being able to see them all the time. Even when we come back next year things are going to be so different next year. Almost everyone is moving out or graduation or something. I know we will all be friends still, but I'm going to miss being able to see them whenever I want. Anywho...So this weekend was pretty great. Macy came up and spent the night on Saturday and was here for Easter. It was fun. It was so quiet in the hall without everyone here, but we had a good time. We ordered pizza and went to church. It was a good Easter. Well I'm going to go take a nap and watch Drop Dead Diva.
~Cait :)

April23, 2011

Well it's Easter weekend and I'm pretty much here all alone. Only Bryan and Daniel are here but I think they are working on stuff, I'm not really sure. So I am watching movies all day. Right now I'm watching Gone with the Wind and it is taking FOREVER! haha. I really like it, I love old movies, but it's like 4 hours long. I'm trying to convince my little sister to come spend the night here, it would be fun. I'm going to be so bored tonight if Macy doesn't come over. Friday I went to the counseling center, and I'm going again next week. It helped and I'm glad I went. I then told my mom what had been going on. I was so scared to tell her, but am glad I did. Tomorrow I am going to church again, I loved it last week and I'm glad I have somewhere to go now. I feel like it will help me. Plus I missed church a lot. Well I'm going to go finish the movie, see ya.
~Cait :)

April21, 2011

Words can not really describe how happy I am right now. Last night was the night I needed. First of all, we had soccer practice which went really well. When we have practice though, I have to get in my soccer chair at like 3 or 4. It's a really comfortable chair and I like it but it's different and it has the controller on the side where as mine is in the middle and it has a bar that goes across that I use to move my arm a lot and without that it's hard to do many things. It's very hard to eat, for example, because I have nothing to lean my arm on so I can't lift it up hardly at all. Anywho, but we were at dinner and I was eating really slow because it was so difficult. My friend Matt, however, thought it was because I didn't want to eat. Oh I forgot to mention last time that I haven't been eating hardly anything in order to feel better. When I eat, I feel gross. I know this is wrong and I can't be starving myself like this, I'm working on it, but that's why Matt thought this. So yeah...But last night I wasn't sitting very comfortably in my chair after soccer because I had slid forward. Matt saw how uncomfortable I was and offered to put me in my normal chair. I said no because I wasn't really comfortable with that. No one besides my parents and aids have ever put me in my chair. Most people hadn't even seen me in my lift before. He eventually talked me into letting him try. I sat in my lift for a good 20-ish minutes. It was hilarious! I was scared for him to actually put me in my chair though because I'm not used to my friends being that close to me, you really have to push me back in order to get me back far enough. He did it though, and he did a great job. We then had a long, intense talk about stuff that's been bothering me. I actually went into details though. But he listened to it all, and he never left me. It felt so good to just get it all out there. When we left my room I was so happy it was ridiculous. I then went to Chad and Tyler's room. I'm not really sure what happened but it ended with Tyler reading my last blog. I left the room, afraid to be in there while he read it. I wasn't sure how he would react. I went to Donelle's room. Her, Matt, Jeremy and I were sitting in there talking when he came in...it looked like he was about to cry. I swear that was not my intent. I just wanted him to know how grateful I was. But yeah...so we talked and hugged and I know now that it's all good. I don't have to worry about him hating me and not wanting to be friends anymore. So it was overall a really good night. I feel sooo much better, and actually happy. A lot happier than I have been in a while. And I'm not faking it now, I'm not lying to myself or others about being happy. So Matt, if you are reading this, thanks! You are my best friend and I love you! As for the rest of you, I could not ask for better and more loving friends. I love you all and it's going to be hard saying goodbye in a couple weeks. But I know we are going to be friends forever, no matter how far we are from each other.
~Cait :D

April12, 2011

Wow...I take back what I was feeling yesterday. I could never be mad at him. If I tell this story, it will no longer be a secret, not that it is much of one anyway. Oh well, I'm kind of to the point where I don't care who knows anymore, and I need to get this out there so I feel better. So here we go... I have a serious self-esteem problem and yesterday was really bad. Some days are just worse than others. I was feeling bad about myself. I don't like how I look at all. I think I am fat, ugly, and often feel alone even when surrounded by friends. It really upsets me when I hear guys talk about how pretty or hot a girl is. Sunday I had to sit and listen to two of my friends talk about hot girls they saw where we were, one of them was who I like. It was really hard to listen to but I tried to act like nothing was wrong. He saw right through me though but I didn't tell him what was really bothering me. Yesterday I had to listen to a very similar conversation. I then went to my room and cried to the point that I began cutting my wrist...I don't do it hard or deep enough to do anything serious and I wasn't suicidal, but I do this once in a while to feel relief.  I know this is wrong and I don't do it very often anymore. This is the second time this semester. But after I calmed down I went to my friend Donelle's room to talk to her about it but my friends Tyler and Chad were in there and I saw that she was crying. So I instantly knew that that wasn't the time to be talking about my problems. I tried to comfort her the best way I could and eventually she calmed down and they started doing homework. I went to talk to some of my other friends down the hall when Matt saw my wrist. For the first time I actually believe he was mad at me. I was so upset that he was upset. We went to Donelle's room and he told her and Tyler. I talked to them for a few but didn't tell them why. We had to leave for a little while and a few hours later it ended being me, Donelle and Tyler. Tyler started by asking us how our days were and I told him not very well. We talked for a while and he really made me feel better. While Donelle and Matt were yelling at me and being mad at me, he was the complete opposite. He comforted me, hugged me and talked to me. This is all I needed. He made me feel better when nobody else could. If you are reading this, thank you. You have no idea what that means to me. He also gave me a movie to watch called To Save A Life. It was very good and made me realize that I'm not alone and that people do care. It showed the other people's views and I never realized how much it hurts others when I do these things or feel this way. I will forever be grateful for what he did for me. It was very eye opening and I promised not to do it again. And I'm going to try very hard to keep that promise. Today is a new day and I feel happy and different. I love my friends and am so glad I have them in my life.
~Cait :)

April11, 2011

Hey, so I decided to write on here to kinda vent a little bit but also hoping that someone will read it so I don't have to have this conversation with them. Lately some things have been bothering me and I don't know if I should say something or just let it go. I told a couple of my friends and they both told me to tell this person but I could use some more opinions. I feel like the guy I like acts different around me when it's just us than when we are with a bunch of people. He asks me to do things and go with him places quite a bit and usually it's just us, and when this happens he is really nice and funny and I feel perfectly fine and like everything is going to be okay. But then as soon as our friends are around he starts teasing and making fun of me. He does this to everyone and I know he is just joking around but he doesn't do it when nobody else is around and it's kind of confusing me. I don't know what I am supposed to think or how I should feel...what do you guys think? And I don't think I am just making this up in my head. I noticed this a couple weeks ago and have been watching to see if maybe I was just being paranoid but it's still happening...
~Cait

April7, 2011

Oh my this week has been hectic...there was a lot of drama the other night and I'm still not quite over it. We have this friend who is making some poor decisions in his life right now and my friend Donelle simply told him he needs to be careful and he over reacted. He wrote a note on Facebook about her that really wasn't nice. It was uncalled for and very rude, she was in tears. It made me and a few others that were with her very angry so we texted him saying that wasn't cool and he shouldn't have done that. He kept texting us saying all this crap about how bad his life was and stuff, and the last text he sent my friend implied he was thinking about suicide. We got so upset and scared and had no idea what to do. Me and Matt decided to go get the RA who was on duty and he got the hall director. They went to his room and he wasn't there but they called him and he agreed to call if he was having anymore of those thoughts. I don't think I've ever been that scared in my life. I thought it was all my fault. If I hadn't texted him he wouldn't be doing this, but he couldn't think saying these things about one of my best friends is ok. Especially since she didn't do anything but care and worry for him. I still feel guilty though. My friends keep saying it wasn't any of our faults, but I wasn't exactly nice in the texts I sent him. It was completely hypocritical of me to do what I did. I'm always saying how I wish everyone got along and that people weren't mean to each other but there I was yelling at him...But on to a happier subject, things are actually feeling somewhat back to normal. Besides the one person mentioned earlier, everyone is getting along and I don't feel awkward anymore. I mean so what if everyone knows my secret, it's not like I have control over it. It's not like I chose this...I can't wait for this weekend. Tomorrow night I'm going to the opera here. Matt's playing in it. Then Saturday I may go to Indy with everyone to go out to eat, and Sunday is the fashion show! I'm so excited, they keep saying it's going to be really cool. It's going to be fun, even if I do have to go by myself. Other than that not much is going on at this moment. But I have to go finish my homework so see ya!

~Cait :)

April4, 2011

Wow what an interesting night...so me and the person I like talked and I feel so much better! It was extremely awkward but I left feeling a lot braver and more confident. Andthe fact that he doesn't hate me and that it's nothing I did, is making me happier. I know he will never think of me that way but I guess I'm ok with that now, I kind of have to be there's nothing I can do to change his mind to give me a chance and to convince him I'm not like other girls, obviously. Oh well...but I feel a lot better now that it's out there.
~Cait :)

April1, 2011

Oh blog, I feel like I can just write anything down here but then I remember who all can read it...haha oops. So it's April Fools Day and I'm scared. I fall for everything! It's ridiculous...So anywho...Last night Matt and I did another prank to Donelle. We printed a bunch of copies of a couple pictures she hates and put one on everyone's doors and ALL OVER her room! It was hilarious!! She was like screaming/laughing. It was great. We have more planned for today but I don't want to say yet in case she reads this for some reason before we do it. Well I don't have that much else to blog about...OH! I may get to go to the Hey Monday concert!!! I'm so excited!!! I just need to find someone to go with me, so if you're reading this and want to join me let me know.
~Cait:)

Mar30, 2011

Will my life ever go back to normal?? I feel like it's not going to. Bethany still isn't doing well and I'm getting really scared. I can't imagine her not being in my life, she's my best friend, even if she does tell my secrets. Nothing will ever change our friendship like that, I was mad the first day I found out but then I realized it's extremely dumb to be mad about something as stupid as that. So what she told him I liked him, well apparently he already knew and wasn't acting any different, he doesn't hate me, we are still friends so who cares.Why be upset about something that doesn't matter? Because right now I feel like my feelings don't matter, as long as everyone else is happy. I just would like to know what all was said hahaha. Oh well, I guess I can't know everything, you would think she would tell me though...Whatevs, well I'm gonna go back to doing my homework...
~Cait:)

Mar28, 2011

This weekend was pretty much awesome. Friday started off kind of crappy but ended up being a lot of fun. A couple of us went to my friend Matt's choir concert and then we came back and a bunch of us played Likewise. It was very entertaining to say the least. Saturday we had 5 soccer teams come for a league day. We played 3 games. We tied the first, lost the second and won the third. My chair got fix so that it goes faster so I was able to play a lot better and it was a lot of fun. Matt's brother came to watch and stay the weekend so we all went out to eat afterward at Tepenyaki's (I have no idea how to spell that). There was like 19 of us that went, it was a little chaotic but really fun. Sunday we just hung out and stuff, nothing to exciting but overall it was a pretty fantastic weekend. However, I'm kind of upset that I dressed up Saturday and Sunday and did my make up and stuff and nobody noticed. Why try if it does no good? I guess it doesn't really matter but still...I wish I knew whether or not he knows. My best friend said she told him but I don't know if she was telling the truth or just saying that to get me to say something. Anywho...It's now Monday and I'm sick. Yay!--NOT! My friends Bri, Donelle and Tyler are all sick and I'm pretty sure I got it from them. I feel like crap, so I'm going to go attempt to take a nap. See ya!
~Cait:)

Mar25, 2011

Do you ever feel like you're not good enough? Cause that's how I feel today...I just feel like I am not good enough for anyone or anything. It makes me mad but I can't exactly do anything about it. I am writing this in here to get my upset-ness out so my friends don't have to see it. I feel like I have been sad or upset a lot this semester and I think that's all they think about me now. I am not normally this bad at all, it's just been a long couple of months...
~Cait

Mar22, 2011

I don't really have that much to blog about, things are pretty much back to normal and the stress has gone down significantly. Things have definitely slowed down and I am so grateful. So I have formspring too but I hardly ever get on but today I randomly decided to check where I found this note:

"You are a very beautiful and strong person, no matter what. Don't let life or your disability get in the way of being the person you can be. I love you, and wish you luck with your life"

It didn't say who it was from but I think because I don't know who it was it made it more special. It made my day and put me in a good mood. Thanks to whoever sent it to me.
~Cait:)

Mar17, 2011

Happy St. Patrick's Day!! I am feeling sooo much better. Things feel back to normal, which is awesome. I literally have the greatest friends in the world! Last night was so fun, we ordered pizza twice and stayed up till like 2:30 talking. It was hilarious though cause we were all so tired hahaha, I don't think we were making any sense at all and I honestly can't remember what all we talked about. But it was fun...Well I better go attempt to look at some of my french stuff before class. See ya!
~Cait :)

Mar16, 2011

Well I lost it last night haha. All that stress and crap that has been happening finally hit me. It was pretty bad, and I want my friends to know how grateful I am that they were there for me. They honestly mean the world to me and I couldn't ask for better friends. Thanks for being so understanding and helping through this rough time if you are reading this. Oh and my best friend that was threatening to tell the guy I like that I like him...yeah she told him...or at least she said she did. I was so scared all day yesterday after she told me but when I finally saw him he didn't say anything or act very different. Hopefully that means we can still be friends. That's what I was most scared of. Not that he wouldn't like me back cause I knew he wouldn't, but I was afraid of losing a good friend. That's why I didn't want him to know...but I'm pretty sure he does now so I guess we will just have to see how it goes...
~Cait :)

Mar15, 2011

Beware the Ides of March!! I'm not really sure what exactly that means but let's just say I'm being extra cautious today. Okay so I'm going to just vent for a few so prepare yourselves. So basically I'm stressed beyond max! I feel like I may explode at any second! Last week was Spring Break and it was awful I'm not gonna lie. First, a couple days before break I found out my BEST friend isn't doing well. She has what I have but when she gets sick, she really gets sick, and she has been sick for a while. But now she is saying she is too exhausted to fight it anymore. She isn't doing well at all and I have no idea what to do if something happens. Ya'll think I'm a mess now? If she doesn't pull through...Anyway so I go home and find out my Grandpa isn't doing well and they don't think he is going to make it much longer! He passed away Sunday March 6. It was a very sad week to say the least. I didn't even get to go see him before...I then came back to school glad to see my friends and they inform me our friend who went to school here last year, Ian Myers, passed away over break. I mean really?! Why does this keep happening? All within a week and a half...And to top it all off my best friend is threatening to tell a certain someone my secret. Plus I have a TON of school crap to do. I seriously don't think I can take anymore. I've slept maybe...5-6 hours in the last 48, I'm barely eating, and I have a headache like no other! UGH!!!

Feb24, 2011

Hey, I'm really bad at this blogging thing haha. So, I'm out of the hospital and better. I had pneumonia and a collapsed lung, yeah not so fun. I was there for a week but when I came back to school my door was all decorated and I had a card from everyone and a teddy bear, it was awesome. It really meant a lot to me, so if any of my friends are reading this thank you so much! I have the greatest friends in the world! I can't believe that we are almost half way through the semester! It's going to be a very long summer not seeing everyone everyday, and I'm honestly afraid I may not see some of them next year even when we come back. They're all saying we will still see each other but I don't think they are really going to be wanting to come back to see me...I hate thinking about it but I know it's going to happen. But not thinking about it yet! So anywho...I am watching The Notebook right now and it's the part where they realize they still love each other after all that time, and she says something about how it's too late and stuff and it's making me think maybe I should just tell the person I like that I like them to see what they think before it's too late, I mean you only live once and I don't want to be thinking 'what if' forever..I just don't want to ruin a friendship and make it awkward every time I see him...What should I do? UGH! Life is so complicated...Well I'm going to get off here and finish this movie, see ya.
~Cait :)

Feb5, 2011

Heyy, so I am in the hospital...yeah...I went into the ER yesterday cause I was having problems breathing and they are going to keep me for a few days I think. I'm sooo bored...

Feb3, 2011

Wow so much for writing in this everyday...I've been really busy and my computer had a virus so  I  wasn't able to get on here for like a week and a half. Anywho...so not much has happened since I last wrote in here. I'm sick now though :/. I've been coughing for like 24 hours and it's getting really annoying. I just want to be able to breath...okay is it breath or breathe?? I always get them mixed up haha. So yeah...well I'm gonna go watch a movie and take a nap.
~Cait :)

Jan18, 2011

Hey, so first of all I want to say Happy Birthday to Kesha! So I had a really good day, I only had two classes and they weren't so bad, one was pretty boring but then I had French and I think I did really well today :). It was fun, and for once I felt like I knew what I was doing. I then went with Natalie and spent a bunch of money in the bookstore on crap and on posters. But they are sooo cool. I had dinner with some amazing people and then watched Jeopardy with some other amazing people. I am really bad at Jeopardy, I think I got maybe 5 right and I guessed on like 3 of them haha. It was a lot of fun though. I love my hall, they have all become some of my best friends. I can't believe we only have a few more months together, it's going to be so weird not seeing them everyday next year...and I'm honestly afraid I may not see some of them hardly ever :/...but I try not to think of that cause it's sad. So I'm going to enjoy the time I have with them and make this the best year ever!
~Cait :)

Jan17, 2011

Wow so I am still not used to writing 2011, that's crazy! But anywho...so I'm Caitlin. I am 19 and am going to Ball State for fashion design and french. I love it here and have the most amazing friends. I started this because the stuff on my other blog was a little too personal to have my friends read, no offense guys. But yeah so I just wanted to start a new one where I don't care who reads it. I'm not really sure what to write about so leave comments about what you think I should write or what you want to know about me. 
~Cait :)