Well, obviously I didn't keep up with writing in this as much as I planned. So much has happened since Thanksgiving but I honestly don't want to talk about it at the moment. A lot of drama mixed with too many emotions. I don't know what I'm feeling right now and I'm honestly trying to avoid it because I'm a hot mess about it all. Basically though, I told the previously mentioned person I like them, they didn't feel the same but we are still friends, I then kind of fell back into liking someone else, we spent a lot of time together, I thought maybe things were changing and that I had a chance, he still doesn't feel the same, I made things awkward as usual, we got past it and are friends, I told both of them I was fine with being friends when I'm not, and here we are.
I wanted to write about New Years though. I am sitting at home with my dad, stepmom, John and his 3 friends. I really wanted to go to Natalie's but didn't have a way there or back. So once again I'm missing out on a great time with my friends. It's very annoying not being able to drive myself to see my friends whenever I want. Anyways... So I wanted to put on here my New Years resolutions so that I have it down and can say if I went through with them. So...
New Years Resolutions:
1. Lose weight- I know I say this every year but it's always an ongoing goal of mine. I have lost around 50-60 pounds since high school, which is more than I thought possible due to sitting all the time, but I still need to lose more.
2. Drink less soda till I get to the point where I don't drink it anymore.
3. No cutting.
4. Get better grades, study, be the student I used to be.
5. Get a control on my eating problems, whether it be a disorder or not. Eat healthier and more often. No more lying about eating. No more skipping meals.
I'm sure there are more but this is it for now. I'll try updating the list as often as I can remember. I also want to blog more often and not keep these feelings bottled up like I have in the past.
Happy New Years!
~Cait :)
Monday, December 31, 2012
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Dec1, 2012
Sorry forgot to hit publish...
Wow, so much for trying to write in this every day. I went home two weekends ago for the first time since school started. Thanksgiving was really good. I started out at my dad's. We were going to go to the Bravo's, Eric's girlfriend (Polly)'s house, but it isn't accessible. So we had our dinner at Rancho Bravo. It was closed, we brought all of our food there. It ended up being Eric, Polly, Megan, John, my dad, Becky, and I. It was really great being altogether, That doesn't happen very often. For those of you who don't know, Eric is my older step-brother, Megan is my younger sister, John is my younger half-brother, and Becky is my step-mom. However, the words "step" and "half" don't exist in our house. Eric is 22, Megan is 19 and John is almost 13. Eric has been my friend since I was very young, like 2, and has been my brother since I was 7, he was 8. In my opinion he is just as much my brother as Megan is my sister. I also have a younger "half" sister, Macy, on my moms side, who is 13. I am very close with all of my siblings, as they are all with each other. John and Macy, even though from different sides are extremely close friends, they are in the same grade, at the same school, and have often called each other their best friends. Anyway, as we have gotten older, we have grown apart, especially with me living 2 hours away 8 months of the year. When I am home I rarely see Eric since he has moved out, and Megan is always gone at a friends house or out. So it was very nice to have us all in one place. I then went to my mom's house. My grandma came up, my aunt and her new husband came up from Florida, my cousin Shelby came up, and then Megan, Macy, my mom, her boyfriend Lance, his sisters Lori and Kim, their husband Larry and Toni, and some of their kids were there. It was really good seeing everyone. As much as I love being at school, I really do miss them when I'm gone.
~Cait :)
Wow, so much for trying to write in this every day. I went home two weekends ago for the first time since school started. Thanksgiving was really good. I started out at my dad's. We were going to go to the Bravo's, Eric's girlfriend (Polly)'s house, but it isn't accessible. So we had our dinner at Rancho Bravo. It was closed, we brought all of our food there. It ended up being Eric, Polly, Megan, John, my dad, Becky, and I. It was really great being altogether, That doesn't happen very often. For those of you who don't know, Eric is my older step-brother, Megan is my younger sister, John is my younger half-brother, and Becky is my step-mom. However, the words "step" and "half" don't exist in our house. Eric is 22, Megan is 19 and John is almost 13. Eric has been my friend since I was very young, like 2, and has been my brother since I was 7, he was 8. In my opinion he is just as much my brother as Megan is my sister. I also have a younger "half" sister, Macy, on my moms side, who is 13. I am very close with all of my siblings, as they are all with each other. John and Macy, even though from different sides are extremely close friends, they are in the same grade, at the same school, and have often called each other their best friends. Anyway, as we have gotten older, we have grown apart, especially with me living 2 hours away 8 months of the year. When I am home I rarely see Eric since he has moved out, and Megan is always gone at a friends house or out. So it was very nice to have us all in one place. I then went to my mom's house. My grandma came up, my aunt and her new husband came up from Florida, my cousin Shelby came up, and then Megan, Macy, my mom, her boyfriend Lance, his sisters Lori and Kim, their husband Larry and Toni, and some of their kids were there. It was really good seeing everyone. As much as I love being at school, I really do miss them when I'm gone.
~Cait :)
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