Dec31, 2012

Well, obviously I didn't keep up with writing in this as much as I planned. So much has happened since Thanksgiving but I honestly don't want to talk about it at the moment. A lot of drama mixed with too many emotions. I don't know what I'm feeling right now and I'm honestly trying to avoid it because I'm a hot mess about it all. Basically though, I told the previously mentioned person I like them, they didn't feel the same but we are still friends, I then kind of fell back into liking someone else, we spent a lot of time together, I thought maybe things were changing and that I had a chance, he still doesn't feel the same, I made things awkward as usual, we got past it and are friends, I told both of them I was fine with being friends when I'm not, and here we are.

I wanted to write about New Years though. I am sitting at home with my dad, stepmom, John and his 3 friends. I really wanted to go to Natalie's but didn't have a way there or back. So once again I'm missing out on a great time with my friends. It's very annoying not being able to drive myself to see my friends whenever I want. Anyways... So I wanted to put on here my New Years resolutions so that I have it down and can say if I went through with them. So...

New Years Resolutions:

1. Lose weight- I know I say this every year but it's always an ongoing goal of mine. I have lost around 50-60 pounds since high school, which is more than I thought possible due to sitting all the time, but I still need to lose more.

2. Drink less soda till I get to the point where I don't drink it anymore.

3. No cutting.

4. Get better grades, study, be the student I used to be.

5. Get a control on my eating problems, whether it be a disorder or not. Eat healthier and more often. No more lying about eating. No more skipping meals.


I'm sure there are more but this is it for now. I'll try updating the list as often as I can remember. I also want to blog more often and not keep these feelings bottled up like I have in the past.

Happy New Years!
~Cait :)