June28, 2012

I've been through a lot of crap in my life but this is the roughest thing I've ever had to deal with. My best friend, Bethany Marie Deane, passed away last night around 7 pm. She also had SMA, but in the last few years had grown significantly weaker and was constantly getting sick. I know that she is no longer in pain and suffering. I know I'm being selfish by wanting her here, but I guess that's normal. It just hurts so bad...I get better for a few but then it comes again at full force. It feels like someone's ripping out my heart and squeezing my lungs to the point where I can't hardly breathe. I find myself just staring out into space and not being able to focus. Tomorrow is my 21st birthday and I'm having dinner with a bunch of friends and then going downtown Indy, but honestly I don't know how fun I'll be. I'm afraid as soon as I see them I'm going to lose it and start crying again. I'm not sure how it's going to go. I know if Bethany were here she would tell me to stop being sad and have fun on my birthday. So I'm going to try but I think it's going to take a while for me to get back to normal...
~Cait

June6, 2012

I'm officially the worst blogger ever, not that anyone probably reads this anyway, but whatever I'm back now! It was a crazy semester but we had some great times as usual. We had some birthdays, where everyone got together, we watched more movies than one can count, there was a stuffed animal wedding, we ate a lot of Mexican food, and had a blast in Indy during Superbowl weekend to name a few things. It was all a lot of fun. I also got a lot more involved on campus. I continued with hall council and power soccer, but I also became a rep for RHA. Superbowl weekend was by far one of the greatest weekends! It was so fun! The Thursday night of that  weekend, Donelle, Tyler and I went to the VH1 Pepsi Fan Jam concert at the fairgrounds. It was B.O.B., Gym Class Heroes and The All-American Rejects, with special guest Neon Hitch and Adam Levine!! We then went to IHOP afterwards so we didn't get home till after 1 am, then we got up and Tyler and I left at 5 to go to The Today Show. Gym Class Heroes, Adam Levine, and Neon Hitch were there. It was downtown Indy. We got there like an hour before it started but there were already so many people there. I couldn't see a thing, so Tyler went to see what else was going on or something and came back and told me he walked right next to Adam Levine! If only I had gone with him! So we went back to where he saw him, it was this little area back behind/between some buildings. It was between the back of the  building that went out to The Today Show, the place where they were doing interviews for ESPN, and the VIP Lounge where celebs could wait to go to these different things. So we were where they had to walk to get from one to another. We saw a few football players and coaches, (I'm not really sure who), Jimmy Fallon, and Adam Sandler!! We then walked around downtown for a few, looking at all the Superbowl stuff, it was pretty cool. We went back to school after that and relaxed the rest of the day. The next day we were going to get Starbucks and stuff when Donelle found out that Neil Patrick Harris was in Indy. She was freaking out, I was kind of too on the inside. So a bunch of us decided to go back to Indy to try and find him. I didn't go downtown with them though, I actually went to the CMT Fan Jam concert thing with Tyler (he got free tickets), we dropped them all off before we went. We had to wait in the freezing rain for what seemed like hours, but it was worth it. It was a small local band first that was pretty good, and then Sugar Ray! I didn't know they were going to be there! They were awesome! I think I was one of the only people who was really excited for them but I didn't care, I loved them when I was younger! Then it was the actual CMT concert, which was Carrie Underwood and Steven Tyler. They sang mash-ups of their songs together, it was surprisingly really good! Then we picked everyone up and went back to our everyday lives, the excitement was over. We had a lot of fun over the semester. I have the greatest friends ever. I am so lucky to have them all in my life. I honestly don't know what I would do without them. They're all wonderful, and now that it's summer I'm missing them a lot. Hopefully most of them get to go to my birthday dinner in a couple weeks! Well this blog is awkwardly long now so if you're still reading this, you should really go find something else to do, my life is not that interesting, really it isn't. So go now and I'll stop writing. Bye!

~Cait :)