Thursday, September 5, 2013

Sept5, 2013

Hello there. As you can probably guess, I am back at school. It's so different around here with almost everyone graduated. I wasn't sure how this year was going to be with so many people gone, but so far it's been very good and I think it's going to be a very good year.

I have officially changed my major to physics. I'm taking a physics class, two astronomy classes, and French. So far I am really liking my classes. I am doing much better! I am feeling motivated and really trying to do my best. I had my first test of the semester last week, in French, and got an A! I know it may not seem like a big deal, but compared to last year it's amazing. I am going to all my classes, doing all my homework, even doing the assigned reading. Well, okay some of it. Let's not push it. Have you ever tried reading a physics book? Yeah, not easy. I've really turned things around though, and I'm excited to show people I can do well.

I've also really been getting involved with the Revolution, the church I go to on campus. If any of you have read some of my previous blogs, especially from three years ago, then you know how different things have been for me recently. Basically, three years ago I was not doing too well. I was depressed, and just going through a really rough time. My friend Chad got me going to the Revo toward the end of that school year and I've been going ever since. I wasn't really involved though, I just went to church on Sundays. This year has been very different. I helped hand out cards for them during opening week as they handed out snow cones, I hung out with a few of them at Quad Bash, went tailgating with them, and then when I couldn't go to church that first Sunday before classes I still went to the picnic and then hung out with a bunch of them as they played ultimate frisbee and then a few of us went to Berry Winkle. They even walked there so I could go too. It's been a lot of fun. Tonight I went to house church for the first time. I was kind of nervous, but excited at the same time. I had a great time. I didn't know what it was going to be like. I'm not going to go into a lot of detail because I'm going to start a new blog just for this stuff but I just wanted to say how happy I am to be doing all this with this church. I love it and am so glad that this came into my life when it did!

~Caitlin :)

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Sept4, 2013

As I sit in the quad alone I look around. I had no intention of stopping here, but the weather and my need of a place to relax for a few minutes drew me here. I'm glad I did. As I sit here taking all of this in, I see God in every detail. I take in everything going on around me, the beautiful surroundings. I see God's work and am amazed. I don't mean the buildings or even the occasional person walking by. I see the different trees, the grass, the sunlight sparking through the branches as the wind blows, I hear a mixture of birds and bugs, and see leaves fall to the ground as their time comes to an end. But beyond these things I hear life going on as normal. Cars driving by, people talking on there way to their own destinations, the bell tower going off, and a marching band practicing in the distance. So many sights and sounds of life going on around me. I feel so blessed and am thankful for my life. I need to remember this feeling more often, to appreciate the little things, to see all the wonderful things that are right in the world. I dread leaving this little spot of mine and having to go back to the busy and stressful day ahead of me, but I take all this with me and I know that this will always be here. Maybe not this exact spot, but if I just stop and take a moment and look around it will be there.

My suggestion is to do this as often as you can. Whether it's just for a minute or for an hour, take the time to just relax. Go outside and appreciate the things around you.

~Cait :)

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

July30, 2013

Wow... remind to never do a summer to do list again. Either that or remind me to do actually do it hahaha. This was my list:

Goals for this summer:
1. Read The Great Gatsby
2. Paint at least 3 canvases, and 1 other thing
3. Get caught up on Doctor Who
4. Go without tv, phone, laptop, etc for an entire day
5. Read The Mortal Instruments series
6. Cook something
7. Have a Disney movie marathon with Macy (all day)
8. Drink 1 or less soda a day
9. Go on a walk
10. Have a fantastic birthday
11. Go to the movies (haven't been in a year)
12. Go to the zoo
13. Make more youtube videos
14.Watch all 8 Harry Potter movies in a row
15. Write in blog at least once a week

Pretty simple right? Yeah... I only finished those crossed out... my bad! I did some partially, like most days I drank 1 or less soda a day, I went without electronics for a day (except my phone), I painted some but not all 4 things, we tried to watch the Harry Potter movies but my wifi was jank at the time, and I passed the zoo twice hahaha.

It's been a pretty great summer though. I mean my birthday was amazing, and I did read, just not the books I planned on. Plus, I just finished Doctor Who yesterday! The last episode... I can't even... I cried like a freaking baby. I can't wait until November! There's a 50th anniversary and David Tennant is coming back!! I'm so excited!!

I don't really have anything else to write about. I go back to school in a couple weeks. I can't wait! I get to move in early because I am part of Opening Committee. But until then I probably won't have much to write about, things have slowed down tremendously. So until something interesting happens or I get really bored again...

~Cait :)

Thursday, July 25, 2013

July25, 2013

Hello! Sorry it's been a while, it's been a crazy few weeks!

So my birthday happened. It was awesome! Probably one of the best birthdays ever to be honest! My mom, Lance, Macy, Caley and I met up with Natalie, Matt, JP, Christian and Belle for lunch. We ate at Rockbottom, downtown Indy, it was delicious. It was a lot of fun! And it was so good seeing them all! It's rough going almost all of summer break without seeing my friends. Then, Natalie, Belle, Jake and I went to see Fall Out Boy. I can't even describe how excited I was. We got there early because it was general admission and I wanted to be able to get up close so I could see. However, when we got there, we had to go a different way to use the elevator and there was no security! I'm not kidding! We just went right on up and into The Egyptian Room! It was awesome! The opening band was doing sound checks, and there was a couple people who worked there but that was it, no one else was in there. After the band left the stage we went up to the front, expecting the doors to open at any minute, but they didn't.



So we were hanging out talking when someone asks "is that them?", I turned around and sure enough Fall Out Boy was just walking by! I was freaking out to say the least. The thing is though, when I meet famous people I can't talk... especially when it's someone I really love. So they walked by and said hey and then went out into the hallway. My friends were like "why didn't you ask for a picture?!" but I couldn't, I was just too shocked. I figured they would walk back through though. And a few minutes (okay like 15-20 minutes) later Pete and Joe were walking back through. Luckily Jake went over, since I was just sitting there whispering "that's Pete freaking Wentz!", and asked if they would take a picture with me and told them it was my birthday. Pete said of course and then we took a picture.


While we were taking it Patrick was walking in and then Andy. So when we went to take another, to make sure it was okay, Patrick jumped in and then Andy yelled to wait and ran over to get in the picture too.


And then we took a big group picture. Which is funny because if you look at this one and then the one from 6 years ago, Pete and I are in the exact same places!
2013
2007

We were right in front for the show. I was super excited! But then I heard the security people talking about us getting hurt sitting right there. Then one of them (I think she was in charge) came over and asked if we'd like to move over to the side. We said no. Then a few minutes later the Production Manager came over and asked us the same thing. He said that they were worried about us getting hurt by crowd surfers and he wanted us to move off to the side in front of the gate. I told him I didn't want to, that I'd be okay. This was not my first concert like this, it wasn't even my first Fall Out Boy concert (it was my 4th). He still kept insisting, saying that Pete was worried about us and he said we would still be able to see. I said okay finally. If it had just been me I would have probably stayed, but I felt kind of bad because Natalie and Belle were there and I don't think they're used to that kind of concert. Plus we'd been asked twice. So they cleared a path and lead us over to the side. We could still see, especially since we were in front of the gate, so I was happy. I couldn't see the whole stage, like the back or the far left side, but it was okay. It was a really good show and it was a lot of fun! I'm so glad I got to go, especially on my birthday! Afterwards we were waiting by the buses, I'm not entirely sure why since I already got multiple pictures with them. But we were waiting, Natalie, Belle, and Jake left, so it was my mom, Lance, Macy, and Caley (who'd just come to pick me up) waiting with me. They put up gates because there were so many people, and no one was leaving. Macy and I were right up against the gate thing and Pete came out! Macy was freaking out, it was hilarious! I don't think she'd ever met a legit famous person before. She was taking pictures and I held out my ticket hoping he'd sign it. He was signing a few things before getting on the bus. He got over by us and signed my ticket and said happy birthday again and then moved on. Macy was like "did he just tell you happy birthday again?!" I told her yes and then we left because the rest weren't going to come out right away and I wanted IHOP. We had to get breakfast at midnight, it was my 22nd birthday, duh! It was probably one of the best birthdays ever! I know I say that every year, but that's just because I love my birthday and every year it gets more awesome! I don't know how I'm going to top all that next year though...

The awesome concerts didn't stop there. The next weekend Macy, Megan, Hannah, Whitney, and I went to see the Goo Goo Dolls and Matchbox 20! This time it was at Klipsch, which is pretty much my favorite place in all of Indiana. I love it there so much! Macy had never been there before so I was excited to get to show her it. Megan, Hannah, and Whitney had lawn tickets. Macy and I got tickets from Jake, who won them. They were for upper pavilion, in seats I couldn't get to. So they let me move to the front of the upper pavilion, right behind the walkway between them. I love those seats! They're fairly close, and up a little bit so you can see over everyone perfectly. It was a lot of fun! Even if we did almost get lost three times in Indy trying to get to Panda Express, then Jake's house to get the tickets, then to Goodwill in Noblesville.

Then a few days later, Macy, Caley, Kristen, and I went to the Justin Bieber concert. I know, I know, Justin Bieber. I think they just got me tickets so they could sit down in front haha. It was in Bakers Fieldhouse, or whatever it's called, where the Pacers play, and we had floor seats. I was excited even though I wasn't his biggest fan. I thought Cody Simpson and Carley Rae Jepsen were opening, I had read that somewhere online, but I was very wrong. The three of them wanted tshirts and the lines were crazy so by the time we got down to our seats the show had started. I wasn't too worried though because I have no idea what Cody Simpson sings. It wasn't him though. It was Mike Posner. He was pretty good and our seats were awesome. They were off to the side, so we could see everything. Then when he was done they brought out the drums and guitars for the next band. The drums said HCR on the front, so I knew it wasn't Carley Rae Jepsen, but I couldn't figure out who it was. Then some guy came out and said "give it up for Hot Chelle Rae!" ... HOT CHELLE RAE!! I looove them! I couldn't believe they were there! They were so good too! I was more excited about them than Justin Bieber! It was awesome!


Then Justin Bieber was on. I wasn't sure what to expect. I have never heard that much screaming from the fans in my life, it was intense. The opening was awesome though! I've been to a LOT of concerts and this was probably the coolest show I've seen. The effects were so cool, there were tons of lights, a huge set, even fireworks!
Opening song

Huge set
There was this thing he got in to and went around the crowd too. It was so cool! It was a really good show! I had a lot of fun!



So it was a busy couple of weeks! 3 concerts in 10 days! It was a lot of fun though! Now I'm back to boring, relaxing summer. Nothing else is going on. I go back to school in a couple weeks, I'm really excited! This is the first time I've ever been excited to go back, not just to see friends, but for my classes as well. I think it's going to be a very good year!

~Cait :)

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

June12, 2013

Hello! This summer is going incredibly fast! I can't believe it's almost the middle of June already. Pretty soon it's going to be my birthday (and we all know how excited I get for my birthday). We're going out to eat and then Natalie, my mom, Lance and I are going to the Fall Out Boy concert! I cannot wait!

It's hard to believe that I'm going to be 22. If you weren't aware, the doctors told my parents I wouldn't live past 2. Guess I proved them wrong, eh? It's crazy, I feel healthier and happier than ever. Sure I still have my sad moments. I may just be feeling like this because it's summertime. Either way, I like it.

I don't really know where I am going with this post. I started with something in mind but can't remember now. I'm bored and felt like typing. I can type so much faster when my laptop is actually in my lap so I feel like I should blog and stuff when I have it like this.

I guess I'll do another list...

Goals for this summer:
1. Read The Great Gatsby
2. Paint at least 3 canvases, and 1 other thing
3. Get caught up on Doctor Who
4. Go without tv, phone, laptop, etc for an entire day
5. Read The Mortal Instruments series
6. Cook something
7. Have a Disney movie marathon with Macy (all day)
8. Drink 1 or less soda a day
9. Go on a walk
10. Have a fantastic birthday
11. Go to the movies (haven't been in a year)
12. Go to the zoo
13. Make more youtube videos
14.Watch all 8 Harry Potter movies in a row
15. Write in blog at least once a week

These are just some goals I have. I will keep you updated on how many I get done. If you have any suggestions for what else I should do please comment below or let me know some other way!
~Cait:)

Monday, June 3, 2013

June3, 2013

Hello there! I know it's been less than a week since I wrote last, and nothing has really happened since then. Just the usual hanging out, watching movies and such. Nothing exciting has happened... yet in a way something has changed.

Last week I was feeling very down. Almost like I was two years ago. It got pretty bad. I was feeling very lonely, sad, and was just in a very dark place. But today, just within the last hour, I noticed it's gone. I don't know what changed but I'm happy. Very happy.

As you know, I've been struggling with eating problems for several years now. I've lost over 50 pounds since high school, which may not sound like a whole lot but for someone in a wheelchair who can't hardly move and who doesn't like too much healthy food, it is a lot. I've been trying to get on a normal eating pattern. I figured that's the first step. I always eat at least twice a day now, even when I don't want to, even if it's just a little. I think this is helping me. It's definitely helping my energy I think.

I have so much confidence right now, and my self-esteem is higher than it's ever been. I don't know what changed but I'm glad it did. I feel great! I don't really care what others think anymore. I mean, sure, I'll always care about what they think but I'm not going to dwell on it any longer. I'm not going to let it get to me and upset me. It's time to start making me happy instead of worrying about if I'm okay by everyone else's standards. If you don't like me the way I am, that's your loss, I have plenty of friends who love me just the way I am.

I have more confidence now than I ever have. I'm happier than I've been in a long time. I'm looking forward to the future and what it holds for me.
~Cait :)

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

May29, 2013

Hello! I don't have much to blog about. I haven't done a whole lot since I last wrote. I've painted some and watched movies, and watched a lot of Doctor Who. Until this weekend that's pretty much all I'd done.

John and I hung out, usually with at least one or two of his friends. We played soccer and chilled outside, it was pretty fun. Monte came over for a couple days. I hadn't seen him in forever! (Okay, like a week, but before that it was like five months) I can't believe how big he is, I still see him as the little 6 year old I used to babysit, He's 12 now. Crazy how time flies. Macy mentioned last night that after Friday she'll officially be in 8th grade. I can't believe this! I can't believe that her and John are going to start their last year of middle school in just three short months. --- Macy and John are my little sister and brother. They are both 13. No they're not twins, they're not even related. My mom had Macy and my stepmom, Becky, had John. They just happen to only be a month apart. I remember when they were born, I was 8. I can't believe they're teenagers now.

Anyway... Yesterday was Memorial Day. My aunt Lori and her husband Trevor are up here from Florida, so my grandma and her "man friend" came up, my cousin Shelby came up, Lori and Larry (Lance's sister and brother-in-law) came over, and then I invited Natalie and Jc. We had a lot of fun, or at least I did. It was supposed to be a cookout but it rained so we all stayed in. Natalie, Jc, Shelby, Macy and I played Nintendo 64 and Apples to Apples, and ate obviously. It was great seeing them. I was worried it was going to be awkward, the reason I invited them in the first place was because I thought Megan and Macy were having friends over, I thought Shelby was bringing her boyfriend, and I thought there was going to be a lot more people here, but none of them came. It all turned out okay though.

That's pretty much it though. Tonight we're having a bonfire and hanging out. I'm so glad it's summer vacation! At the same time though, I'm anxious for the new semester to start, to get my act together, to officially change my major, and to just try as hard as I can to do better. Until then I will keep you updated on my rather boring, but relaxing summer. I just can't wait for my birthday! It's officially in one month! It's like 2 am so it's official. I can start inviting people on the first! We're going to have lunch/dinner in Indy, I haven't decided where yet, before the concert. I can't wait :)

~Cait