Mar30, 2011

Will my life ever go back to normal?? I feel like it's not going to. Bethany still isn't doing well and I'm getting really scared. I can't imagine her not being in my life, she's my best friend, even if she does tell my secrets. Nothing will ever change our friendship like that, I was mad the first day I found out but then I realized it's extremely dumb to be mad about something as stupid as that. So what she told him I liked him, well apparently he already knew and wasn't acting any different, he doesn't hate me, we are still friends so who cares.Why be upset about something that doesn't matter? Because right now I feel like my feelings don't matter, as long as everyone else is happy. I just would like to know what all was said hahaha. Oh well, I guess I can't know everything, you would think she would tell me though...Whatevs, well I'm gonna go back to doing my homework...
~Cait:)

Mar28, 2011

This weekend was pretty much awesome. Friday started off kind of crappy but ended up being a lot of fun. A couple of us went to my friend Matt's choir concert and then we came back and a bunch of us played Likewise. It was very entertaining to say the least. Saturday we had 5 soccer teams come for a league day. We played 3 games. We tied the first, lost the second and won the third. My chair got fix so that it goes faster so I was able to play a lot better and it was a lot of fun. Matt's brother came to watch and stay the weekend so we all went out to eat afterward at Tepenyaki's (I have no idea how to spell that). There was like 19 of us that went, it was a little chaotic but really fun. Sunday we just hung out and stuff, nothing to exciting but overall it was a pretty fantastic weekend. However, I'm kind of upset that I dressed up Saturday and Sunday and did my make up and stuff and nobody noticed. Why try if it does no good? I guess it doesn't really matter but still...I wish I knew whether or not he knows. My best friend said she told him but I don't know if she was telling the truth or just saying that to get me to say something. Anywho...It's now Monday and I'm sick. Yay!--NOT! My friends Bri, Donelle and Tyler are all sick and I'm pretty sure I got it from them. I feel like crap, so I'm going to go attempt to take a nap. See ya!
~Cait:)

Mar25, 2011

Do you ever feel like you're not good enough? Cause that's how I feel today...I just feel like I am not good enough for anyone or anything. It makes me mad but I can't exactly do anything about it. I am writing this in here to get my upset-ness out so my friends don't have to see it. I feel like I have been sad or upset a lot this semester and I think that's all they think about me now. I am not normally this bad at all, it's just been a long couple of months...
~Cait

Mar22, 2011

I don't really have that much to blog about, things are pretty much back to normal and the stress has gone down significantly. Things have definitely slowed down and I am so grateful. So I have formspring too but I hardly ever get on but today I randomly decided to check where I found this note:

"You are a very beautiful and strong person, no matter what. Don't let life or your disability get in the way of being the person you can be. I love you, and wish you luck with your life"

It didn't say who it was from but I think because I don't know who it was it made it more special. It made my day and put me in a good mood. Thanks to whoever sent it to me.
~Cait:)

Mar17, 2011

Happy St. Patrick's Day!! I am feeling sooo much better. Things feel back to normal, which is awesome. I literally have the greatest friends in the world! Last night was so fun, we ordered pizza twice and stayed up till like 2:30 talking. It was hilarious though cause we were all so tired hahaha, I don't think we were making any sense at all and I honestly can't remember what all we talked about. But it was fun...Well I better go attempt to look at some of my french stuff before class. See ya!
~Cait :)

Mar16, 2011

Well I lost it last night haha. All that stress and crap that has been happening finally hit me. It was pretty bad, and I want my friends to know how grateful I am that they were there for me. They honestly mean the world to me and I couldn't ask for better friends. Thanks for being so understanding and helping through this rough time if you are reading this. Oh and my best friend that was threatening to tell the guy I like that I like him...yeah she told him...or at least she said she did. I was so scared all day yesterday after she told me but when I finally saw him he didn't say anything or act very different. Hopefully that means we can still be friends. That's what I was most scared of. Not that he wouldn't like me back cause I knew he wouldn't, but I was afraid of losing a good friend. That's why I didn't want him to know...but I'm pretty sure he does now so I guess we will just have to see how it goes...
~Cait :)

Mar15, 2011

Beware the Ides of March!! I'm not really sure what exactly that means but let's just say I'm being extra cautious today. Okay so I'm going to just vent for a few so prepare yourselves. So basically I'm stressed beyond max! I feel like I may explode at any second! Last week was Spring Break and it was awful I'm not gonna lie. First, a couple days before break I found out my BEST friend isn't doing well. She has what I have but when she gets sick, she really gets sick, and she has been sick for a while. But now she is saying she is too exhausted to fight it anymore. She isn't doing well at all and I have no idea what to do if something happens. Ya'll think I'm a mess now? If she doesn't pull through...Anyway so I go home and find out my Grandpa isn't doing well and they don't think he is going to make it much longer! He passed away Sunday March 6. It was a very sad week to say the least. I didn't even get to go see him before...I then came back to school glad to see my friends and they inform me our friend who went to school here last year, Ian Myers, passed away over break. I mean really?! Why does this keep happening? All within a week and a half...And to top it all off my best friend is threatening to tell a certain someone my secret. Plus I have a TON of school crap to do. I seriously don't think I can take anymore. I've slept maybe...5-6 hours in the last 48, I'm barely eating, and I have a headache like no other! UGH!!!