July25, 2013

Hello! Sorry it's been a while, it's been a crazy few weeks!

So my birthday happened. It was awesome! Probably one of the best birthdays ever to be honest! My mom, Lance, Macy, Caley and I met up with Natalie, Matt, JP, Christian and Belle for lunch. We ate at Rockbottom, downtown Indy, it was delicious. It was a lot of fun! And it was so good seeing them all! It's rough going almost all of summer break without seeing my friends. Then, Natalie, Belle, Jake and I went to see Fall Out Boy. I can't even describe how excited I was. We got there early because it was general admission and I wanted to be able to get up close so I could see. However, when we got there, we had to go a different way to use the elevator and there was no security! I'm not kidding! We just went right on up and into The Egyptian Room! It was awesome! The opening band was doing sound checks, and there was a couple people who worked there but that was it, no one else was in there. After the band left the stage we went up to the front, expecting the doors to open at any minute, but they didn't.

So we were hanging out talking when someone asks "is that them?", I turned around and sure enough Fall Out Boy was just walking by! I was freaking out to say the least. The thing is though, when I meet famous people I can't talk... especially when it's someone I really love. So they walked by and said hey and then went out into the hallway. My friends were like "why didn't you ask for a picture?!" but I couldn't, I was just too shocked. I figured they would walk back through though. And a few minutes (okay like 15-20 minutes) later Pete and Joe were walking back through. Luckily Jake went over, since I was just sitting there whispering "that's Pete freaking Wentz!", and asked if they would take a picture with me and told them it was my birthday. Pete said of course and then we took a picture.

While we were taking it Patrick was walking in and then Andy. So when we went to take another, to make sure it was okay, Patrick jumped in and then Andy yelled to wait and ran over to get in the picture too.

And then we took a big group picture. Which is funny because if you look at this one and then the one from 6 years ago, Pete and I are in the exact same places!

2013

2007

We were right in front for the show. I was super excited! But then I heard the security people talking about us getting hurt sitting right there. Then one of them (I think she was in charge) came over and asked if we'd like to move over to the side. We said no. Then a few minutes later the Production Manager came over and asked us the same thing. He said that they were worried about us getting hurt by crowd surfers and he wanted us to move off to the side in front of the gate. I told him I didn't want to, that I'd be okay. This was not my first concert like this, it wasn't even my first Fall Out Boy concert (it was my 4th). He still kept insisting, saying that Pete was worried about us and he said we would still be able to see. I said okay finally. If it had just been me I would have probably stayed, but I felt kind of bad because Natalie and Belle were there and I don't think they're used to that kind of concert. Plus we'd been asked twice. So they cleared a path and lead us over to the side. We could still see, especially since we were in front of the gate, so I was happy. I couldn't see the whole stage, like the back or the far left side, but it was okay. It was a really good show and it was a lot of fun! I'm so glad I got to go, especially on my birthday! Afterwards we were waiting by the buses, I'm not entirely sure why since I already got multiple pictures with them. But we were waiting, Natalie, Belle, and Jake left, so it was my mom, Lance, Macy, and Caley (who'd just come to pick me up) waiting with me. They put up gates because there were so many people, and no one was leaving. Macy and I were right up against the gate thing and Pete came out! Macy was freaking out, it was hilarious! I don't think she'd ever met a legit famous person before. She was taking pictures and I held out my ticket hoping he'd sign it. He was signing a few things before getting on the bus. He got over by us and signed my ticket and said happy birthday again and then moved on. Macy was like "did he just tell you happy birthday again?!" I told her yes and then we left because the rest weren't going to come out right away and I wanted IHOP. We had to get breakfast at midnight, it was my 22nd birthday, duh! It was probably one of the best birthdays ever! I know I say that every year, but that's just because I love my birthday and every year it gets more awesome! I don't know how I'm going to top all that next year though...

The awesome concerts didn't stop there. The next weekend Macy, Megan, Hannah, Whitney, and I went to see the Goo Goo Dolls and Matchbox 20! This time it was at Klipsch, which is pretty much my favorite place in all of Indiana. I love it there so much! Macy had never been there before so I was excited to get to show her it. Megan, Hannah, and Whitney had lawn tickets. Macy and I got tickets from Jake, who won them. They were for upper pavilion, in seats I couldn't get to. So they let me move to the front of the upper pavilion, right behind the walkway between them. I love those seats! They're fairly close, and up a little bit so you can see over everyone perfectly. It was a lot of fun! Even if we did almost get lost three times in Indy trying to get to Panda Express, then Jake's house to get the tickets, then to Goodwill in Noblesville.

Then a few days later, Macy, Caley, Kristen, and I went to the Justin Bieber concert. I know, I know, Justin Bieber. I think they just got me tickets so they could sit down in front haha. It was in Bakers Fieldhouse, or whatever it's called, where the Pacers play, and we had floor seats. I was excited even though I wasn't his biggest fan. I thought Cody Simpson and Carley Rae Jepsen were opening, I had read that somewhere online, but I was very wrong. The three of them wanted tshirts and the lines were crazy so by the time we got down to our seats the show had started. I wasn't too worried though because I have no idea what Cody Simpson sings. It wasn't him though. It was Mike Posner. He was pretty good and our seats were awesome. They were off to the side, so we could see everything. Then when he was done they brought out the drums and guitars for the next band. The drums said HCR on the front, so I knew it wasn't Carley Rae Jepsen, but I couldn't figure out who it was. Then some guy came out and said "give it up for Hot Chelle Rae!" ... HOT CHELLE RAE!! I looove them! I couldn't believe they were there! They were so good too! I was more excited about them than Justin Bieber! It was awesome!

Then Justin Bieber was on. I wasn't sure what to expect. I have never heard that much screaming from the fans in my life, it was intense. The opening was awesome though! I've been to a LOT of concerts and this was probably the coolest show I've seen. The effects were so cool, there were tons of lights, a huge set, even fireworks!

Opening song

Huge set

There was this thing he got in to and went around the crowd too. It was so cool! It was a really good show! I had a lot of fun!

So it was a busy couple of weeks! 3 concerts in 10 days! It was a lot of fun though! Now I'm back to boring, relaxing summer. Nothing else is going on. I go back to school in a couple weeks, I'm really excited! This is the first time I've ever been excited to go back, not just to see friends, but for my classes as well. I think it's going to be a very good year!

~Cait :)

June12, 2013

Hello! This summer is going incredibly fast! I can't believe it's almost the middle of June already. Pretty soon it's going to be my birthday (and we all know how excited I get for my birthday). We're going out to eat and then Natalie, my mom, Lance and I are going to the Fall Out Boy concert! I cannot wait!

It's hard to believe that I'm going to be 22. If you weren't aware, the doctors told my parents I wouldn't live past 2. Guess I proved them wrong, eh? It's crazy, I feel healthier and happier than ever. Sure I still have my sad moments. I may just be feeling like this because it's summertime. Either way, I like it.

I don't really know where I am going with this post. I started with something in mind but can't remember now. I'm bored and felt like typing. I can type so much faster when my laptop is actually in my lap so I feel like I should blog and stuff when I have it like this.

I guess I'll do another list...

Goals for this summer:
1. Read The Great Gatsby
2. Paint at least 3 canvases, and 1 other thing
3. Get caught up on Doctor Who
4. Go without tv, phone, laptop, etc for an entire day
5. Read The Mortal Instruments series
6. Cook something
7. Have a Disney movie marathon with Macy (all day)
8. Drink 1 or less soda a day
9. Go on a walk
10. Have a fantastic birthday
11. Go to the movies (haven't been in a year)
12. Go to the zoo
13. Make more youtube videos
14.Watch all 8 Harry Potter movies in a row
15. Write in blog at least once a week

These are just some goals I have. I will keep you updated on how many I get done. If you have any suggestions for what else I should do please comment below or let me know some other way!
~Cait:)

June3, 2013

Hello there! I know it's been less than a week since I wrote last, and nothing has really happened since then. Just the usual hanging out, watching movies and such. Nothing exciting has happened... yet in a way something has changed.

Last week I was feeling very down. Almost like I was two years ago. It got pretty bad. I was feeling very lonely, sad, and was just in a very dark place. But today, just within the last hour, I noticed it's gone. I don't know what changed but I'm happy. Very happy.

As you know, I've been struggling with eating problems for several years now. I've lost over 50 pounds since high school, which may not sound like a whole lot but for someone in a wheelchair who can't hardly move and who doesn't like too much healthy food, it is a lot. I've been trying to get on a normal eating pattern. I figured that's the first step. I always eat at least twice a day now, even when I don't want to, even if it's just a little. I think this is helping me. It's definitely helping my energy I think.

I have so much confidence right now, and my self-esteem is higher than it's ever been. I don't know what changed but I'm glad it did. I feel great! I don't really care what others think anymore. I mean, sure, I'll always care about what they think but I'm not going to dwell on it any longer. I'm not going to let it get to me and upset me. It's time to start making me happy instead of worrying about if I'm okay by everyone else's standards. If you don't like me the way I am, that's your loss, I have plenty of friends who love me just the way I am.

I have more confidence now than I ever have. I'm happier than I've been in a long time. I'm looking forward to the future and what it holds for me.
~Cait :)

May29, 2013

Hello! I don't have much to blog about. I haven't done a whole lot since I last wrote. I've painted some and watched movies, and watched a lot of Doctor Who. Until this weekend that's pretty much all I'd done.

John and I hung out, usually with at least one or two of his friends. We played soccer and chilled outside, it was pretty fun. Monte came over for a couple days. I hadn't seen him in forever! (Okay, like a week, but before that it was like five months) I can't believe how big he is, I still see him as the little 6 year old I used to babysit, He's 12 now. Crazy how time flies. Macy mentioned last night that after Friday she'll officially be in 8th grade. I can't believe this! I can't believe that her and John are going to start their last year of middle school in just three short months. --- Macy and John are my little sister and brother. They are both 13. No they're not twins, they're not even related. My mom had Macy and my stepmom, Becky, had John. They just happen to only be a month apart. I remember when they were born, I was 8. I can't believe they're teenagers now.

Anyway... Yesterday was Memorial Day. My aunt Lori and her husband Trevor are up here from Florida, so my grandma and her "man friend" came up, my cousin Shelby came up, Lori and Larry (Lance's sister and brother-in-law) came over, and then I invited Natalie and Jc. We had a lot of fun, or at least I did. It was supposed to be a cookout but it rained so we all stayed in. Natalie, Jc, Shelby, Macy and I played Nintendo 64 and Apples to Apples, and ate obviously. It was great seeing them. I was worried it was going to be awkward, the reason I invited them in the first place was because I thought Megan and Macy were having friends over, I thought Shelby was bringing her boyfriend, and I thought there was going to be a lot more people here, but none of them came. It all turned out okay though.

That's pretty much it though. Tonight we're having a bonfire and hanging out. I'm so glad it's summer vacation! At the same time though, I'm anxious for the new semester to start, to get my act together, to officially change my major, and to just try as hard as I can to do better. Until then I will keep you updated on my rather boring, but relaxing summer. I just can't wait for my birthday! It's officially in one month! It's like 2 am so it's official. I can start inviting people on the first! We're going to have lunch/dinner in Indy, I haven't decided where yet, before the concert. I can't wait :)

~Cait

May18, 2013

Hello there! It's summertime!! I am so excited to be out of school for the summer. I need a break to get myself together so I can really do well next year. I love being able to just do nothing and sleep all the time, however I haven't really been able to do that much. I stay at my dad's when my mom has to work because she works at 6 am, but then while I'm at my dad's I have to get up early when Becky works even if my dad doesn't because he can't use one arm right now. So I pretty much get up around 7 or 8 every day and go to bed around 10, unless I'm at my mom's. It isn't as bad as I thought it would be, and it's actually probably good for me to get on this schedule since I have an 8 am class every day next semester and I won't be able to nap all day.

Normally I dread coming home for the summer, but I'm actually happy about it this time. It's good seeing my family, and I'm having a great time with John and Macy. Since they're older we can actually talk about stuff and relate. I can talk to them about stuff that they're going through and they can listen to me and my drama. Macy is pretty much my therapists, she knows everything. With that and her not acting her age, we've become really close the last couple of years, she's honestly become one of my best friends. And John, we've had our differences but we really get along now and have a great time. They're still in school for a couple more weeks though, so in the mean time I'm very bored. I miss my friends but I'm sure I'll get to see them soo, well some of them hopefully.

It's been pretty nice relaxing and not doing anything. I've watched a lot of Doctor Who, and other random movies, and I've painted some. I love that it's getting so warm and sunny out! It's so nice! I could just sit outside forever! But then I would get terribly sunburned hahaha. I think it's going to be a pretty decent summer though, so I'll try to keep you all updated.

~Cait :)

April30, 2013

Hello there. I haven't written in a while, I know. I've been busy, yet nothing big has really happened. The past 3 weekends have been incredible. I've been able to see my closest friends and have had a really good time. However, I'm having a really rough time right now.

I'm getting better at hiding how I feel. I've been putting up walls like I used to, hiding my pain. It's really complicated. I'm happier than I've ever been but at the same time I am depressed because I know it is all ending soon.

It's my fourth year here and I am changing my major. I am very excited for this change and to be able to kind of start over. It's been a rough couple of years. I lack motivation and have been doing poorly in my classes. I was supposed to do better this semester... I'm doing worse than I ever have. I keep lying to people saying I'm doing fine but the truth is I'm not. I'm doing awful. I have had zero motivation to try at all this semester, I barely went to class, all I want to do is sleep, and then when I do finally get motivated I can't focus at all. My motivation and focus have gotten so bad. I think I am going to talk to my doctor over the summer to see if there is anything I can do to fix this. Maybe it's time to face the fact that I need help.

This isn't what's depressing though. I am having a really rough time with all of my friends graduating. I'm happy for them and so proud of all they have done and will do, but I'm going to miss them so much. It's going to be rough. Belle, Allen, Sifat, Donelle, Ethan, Bri, Tyler, Ashley, and Mike are all graduating. That's a lot of my friends, and so many of my closest ones. Some of them I have really gotten close to this year and I can't believe our time is almost over. And then Shannon and Chaneigh are graduating this summer, so there's two more. And then Matt is in December, which I can't even think about right now. I can't think about my best friend leaving... They're all moving on to bigger and better things. I have no doubt that they will each be successful in whatever they are doing. I'm so glad they have some of these opportunities. Whether it's going to grad school, teaching in New Mexico, working at Disney, studying in Africa, or simply just going out into the world and working, they will do great things. But I will miss them like crazy.

I'm trying not to show how sad I am. I want to show that I am supportive. It's hard though. Graduation is in just four short days. I wish I could spend the rest of the week with them, having a great time, forgetting that I may never see some of them again after this week. But on top of being crazy busy with finals and stuff, I've grown apart from some of them. I wish I could fix it but I'm not sure what went wrong.

I guess we'll just have to see how things go. It's going to be an emotional week, that's for sure. I'm going to miss everyone terribly, but am happy for them. I can't wait to see what all they do. I just hope we keep in touch. I'll write again soon, I'm going home Saturday so I will be able to write more often. So until then....

~Caitlin

April7, 2013

Hey! Sorry it's been so long! Not a lot has been going on out of the ordinary. I can't believer there's only three weeks of school left! It's going to be so hard saying goodbye to everyone. I don't want it all to end. I knew this day would come but I didn't think it'd come so quickly. This has got to be the worst part of growing up. Almost all of my friends are graduating. A few of us aren't but there are a lot who are. I'm trying not to think about it and trying to spend as much time with them as I can.

I don't have a whole lot to write about, I just felt like I needed to since it's been a month. I'm happier than I've been in a while, and it's lasted a while. I think it's because I've realized who my true friends are and I'm done caring about what the others think. There are some other things going on that are also making me happy but I'm not going to write about that yet.

I remembered that I was doing lists of favorites but haven't done any in a while so I'll do one of those...

Top 10 Countries I Want To Travel To:
10. Russia
9. Greece
8. India
7. England
6. Australia
5. Egypt
4. Italy
3. Ireland
2. France
1. New Zealand

~Caitlin

I also forgot that I was putting songs that I was listening to on the end of these. So the song for today is Fall Out Boy's new song that was just released The Phoenix. AH! I didn't write on here about them yet! They got back together in February!! There new cd comes out next week! And get this, I had a dream back in February that they got back together to do a show for my birthday, which wasn't too unusual because I have had dreams of their concerts before, but the next day I found out they got back together and were going on tour this summer! AND when I went to see if they were coming to Indy I saw they were...ON MY BIRTHDAY!! I'm not even kidding! I'm so excited!!! I already bought tickets :)