Next list...Favorite bands, musicians, etc.
5. Panic! At The Disco
4. Fall Out Boy
3. He Is We
2. Hey Monday
1. We Are The In Crowd
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Monday, August 27, 2012
Aug27, 2012
Hey, I don't have a whole lot to update about, I just felt like I needed to write something in here...Since not a whole lot is going on as of right now, I think I'm going to do a couple different things. I am going to put some of my 'favorites' on here such as movies, music, tv, books, etc. just so you guys can get to know me a little more. I'm also going to make a list of goals, whether it's for this week, this month or just sometime in my life. I'm going to get that all figured out and then post it later. For now I'm just going to talk about my favorite movies. I'm really bad at deciding which is my favorite but this is the order I'm going with for today, also, no Disney movies are in this list because that's a whole different category, so here it is...
15. Moulin Rouge - This movie is so good! I love Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman! It's a love story musical, which you will come to see many of my favorites are.
14. The Devil Wears Prada - Anne Hathaway, Emily Blunt, Adrian Grenier, Stanley Tucci, and Meryl Streep, what's not to love?! This is an awesome movie about working in the fashion world, so of course I love it!
13. Crazy Stupid Love - This movie is packed with some really awesome actors/actresses. It has Emma Stone, Ryan Gosling, Steve Carell, Julianne Moore, Kevin Bacon and many others.
12. Mean Girls - "It is so fetch!" No but seriously, this movie is hilarious and I quote it at least once a day. It stars a couple of my favorite actresses, Rachel McAdams and Amanda Seyfreid, and of course Tina Fey and Amy Poehler just make it even more hilarious!
11. Water For Elephants -This movie is sooo good! It's very sad at parts but it's worth it because the story is wonderful. Robert Pattinson and Reese Witherspoon are perfect for it and did a great job. I encourage everyone to watch it.
10. 27 Dresses -I love this movie so much! Katherine Heigel and James Marsden are awesome, and it's just a great, funny movie.
9. Hunger Games - This movie is just awesome!! It's so amazing, go watch it if you haven't seen it!!
8. Easy A - This movie has some of my favorite actors and actresses like Emma Stone, Amanda Bynes, Cam Gigandet, Lisa Kudrow, Aly Michalka, Penn Badgley, Thomas Haden Church and of course Stanley Tucci! It's hilarious and I would definitely recommend it!
7. Meet Me In St Louis - Judy Garland is one of my all time favorite actresses and this is one of her best movies. The story is great, the music is great, it's just overall amazing.
6. Burlesque - Christina Aguilera, Cher, Cam Gigandet, Kristen Bell and Stanley Tucci yet again make this movie awesome. It reminds me of Moulin Rouge a lot but it's so different at the same time. The soundtrack is probably one of my favorite cds of all time, it's really good.
5. Sweet Home Alabama - This is the movie that I can watch over and over and never get sick of it. Reese Witherspoon, Patrick Dempsey and Josh Lucas make it even better. It's one of those movies I watch every time I know it's on tv and I know all the words to it...It's great!
4. Pride And Prejudice - This movie is just...amazing. It's very slow and if you don't like movies about that time period you will be completely bored, but it has such a great love story. I love how they go from not being able to stand each other to loving each other. Keira Knightley and Matthew Macfadyen are wonderful together, and Donald Sutherland is just awesome.
3. Titanic - I love Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio, they're amazing. It's the ultimate, tragic love story. Spoiler Alert Warning!! If you need that warning though I am very disappointed and you need to go watch this like ASAP. Everytime I watch it I still hope Leo won't die in the end...it's just so sad.
2. The Wizard Of Oz - I don't even know what to say about this one. It's fantastic and if you haven't seen it I'm afraid I can't talk to you until you go watch it. It's the classic story about there being "no place like home" and appreciating what you have. It also has great, catchy music, and of course Judy Garland!
1. Phantom Of The Opera - The newer version with Gerard Butler, Emmy Rossum, Patrick Wilson and Minnie Driver. This movie is just so wonderful. I love it so much, and the music is amazing. I even have the soundtrack. I would definitely suggest watching this, it's my all time favorite and it has been for years. It's a love story with suspence, action and singing. What could be better?
15. Moulin Rouge - This movie is so good! I love Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman! It's a love story musical, which you will come to see many of my favorites are.
14. The Devil Wears Prada - Anne Hathaway, Emily Blunt, Adrian Grenier, Stanley Tucci, and Meryl Streep, what's not to love?! This is an awesome movie about working in the fashion world, so of course I love it!
13. Crazy Stupid Love - This movie is packed with some really awesome actors/actresses. It has Emma Stone, Ryan Gosling, Steve Carell, Julianne Moore, Kevin Bacon and many others.
12. Mean Girls - "It is so fetch!" No but seriously, this movie is hilarious and I quote it at least once a day. It stars a couple of my favorite actresses, Rachel McAdams and Amanda Seyfreid, and of course Tina Fey and Amy Poehler just make it even more hilarious!
11. Water For Elephants -This movie is sooo good! It's very sad at parts but it's worth it because the story is wonderful. Robert Pattinson and Reese Witherspoon are perfect for it and did a great job. I encourage everyone to watch it.
10. 27 Dresses -I love this movie so much! Katherine Heigel and James Marsden are awesome, and it's just a great, funny movie.
9. Hunger Games - This movie is just awesome!! It's so amazing, go watch it if you haven't seen it!!
8. Easy A - This movie has some of my favorite actors and actresses like Emma Stone, Amanda Bynes, Cam Gigandet, Lisa Kudrow, Aly Michalka, Penn Badgley, Thomas Haden Church and of course Stanley Tucci! It's hilarious and I would definitely recommend it!
7. Meet Me In St Louis - Judy Garland is one of my all time favorite actresses and this is one of her best movies. The story is great, the music is great, it's just overall amazing.
6. Burlesque - Christina Aguilera, Cher, Cam Gigandet, Kristen Bell and Stanley Tucci yet again make this movie awesome. It reminds me of Moulin Rouge a lot but it's so different at the same time. The soundtrack is probably one of my favorite cds of all time, it's really good.
5. Sweet Home Alabama - This is the movie that I can watch over and over and never get sick of it. Reese Witherspoon, Patrick Dempsey and Josh Lucas make it even better. It's one of those movies I watch every time I know it's on tv and I know all the words to it...It's great!
4. Pride And Prejudice - This movie is just...amazing. It's very slow and if you don't like movies about that time period you will be completely bored, but it has such a great love story. I love how they go from not being able to stand each other to loving each other. Keira Knightley and Matthew Macfadyen are wonderful together, and Donald Sutherland is just awesome.
3. Titanic - I love Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio, they're amazing. It's the ultimate, tragic love story. Spoiler Alert Warning!! If you need that warning though I am very disappointed and you need to go watch this like ASAP. Everytime I watch it I still hope Leo won't die in the end...it's just so sad.
2. The Wizard Of Oz - I don't even know what to say about this one. It's fantastic and if you haven't seen it I'm afraid I can't talk to you until you go watch it. It's the classic story about there being "no place like home" and appreciating what you have. It also has great, catchy music, and of course Judy Garland!
1. Phantom Of The Opera - The newer version with Gerard Butler, Emmy Rossum, Patrick Wilson and Minnie Driver. This movie is just so wonderful. I love it so much, and the music is amazing. I even have the soundtrack. I would definitely suggest watching this, it's my all time favorite and it has been for years. It's a love story with suspence, action and singing. What could be better?
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Aug22, 2012
Hey! I am all moved back into Ball State! I moved back in last Saturday, I got to move in early because I was a part of Opening Committee for the residence hall I live in. For those of you who don't know a residence hall is what most people often mistakenly call a dorm. A dorm is where you sleep, a residence hall is where you live. Wow...I hang out with way too many people involved in housing and residence life hahaha. Anyway, back to Opening Committee, I basically had a blast! I made many new friends and became closer to those I already knew but wasn't super close to. We have been having so much fun! Oh and I also have my van here this year so it's been pretty fun going to do all these random things. We've gone out to eat, to the mall, to Wal-Mart at midnight to get The Hunger Games, etc. Let me just tell you, that Wal-Mart trip was fun but exhausting! We had all gotten up early to do check ins and then we didn't get back till 2 am and had to get up and ready to do check ins again by like 8 am. We all got so much stuff that they literally got one of the move in carts here to bring in all the stuff. Opening Committee put on 2 programs for opening week. There was an ice cream social/game night which turned into a huge dance party. We learned the Interlude dance, which is kind of my new obsession. If you haven't heard of it go YouTube it, the song is Interlude by Attack Attack and there's a real easy dance to it but when there's a whole room doing it it looks awesome. The next night we had karaoke, which was also a ton of fun. So many people showed up to these events, it was crazy! I hope we can get people out like that for Hall Council events and programs.
Sunday we had got together and had waffles, it was like the waffle sales we always have but it was just for us and they were free. It was pretty fun. Monday was the first day of classes. I only had one, family wellness. It seems like it's going to be a pretty easy class, kind of like a health class but also about families. That evening a few of us went to the Student Center, I didn't eat because I was getting dinner later with Matt but I went and hung out while the others ate. We then came back and chilled by the couches, it was before or close to 6 pm. The group got bigger and Matt came over so we ordered pizza and he stayed for a bit but there were like 7 of us that stayed there till after 11 talking. We were there for over 5 hours! We had a lot of good conversations though and we had a lot of fun. Today, well technically now it's yesterday, I had 3 classes. I was nervous because I can't reach the elevator buttons in the buildings where 2 of my classes are. It all worked out though and I think this semester is going to go great. I had my computer class, then lunch with Matt and Bri, then French, and then the study of designers and forecasting. I came back to my room and was talking to my mom because I'm stressing out about money. I then got very upset because a lot has been on my mind lately and I was thinking how I would normally talk to Bethany about this stuff that's bothering me. So then I was really sad and kind of losing it because it's still rough. I started to feel better though after a little while. I decided to check Facebook and stuff when one of my new friends sent me a message asking if I wanted to watch Mean Girls, so the same group that was there for 5 hours yesterday was there again watching that. It was fun and I definitely needed it.
Well I think that's about all for now. I need to go to bed, I have to get up in 6 hours. I'm sure I'll think of more to write after I post this but it'll just have to wait till next time. Night!
~Cait :)
Sunday we had got together and had waffles, it was like the waffle sales we always have but it was just for us and they were free. It was pretty fun. Monday was the first day of classes. I only had one, family wellness. It seems like it's going to be a pretty easy class, kind of like a health class but also about families. That evening a few of us went to the Student Center, I didn't eat because I was getting dinner later with Matt but I went and hung out while the others ate. We then came back and chilled by the couches, it was before or close to 6 pm. The group got bigger and Matt came over so we ordered pizza and he stayed for a bit but there were like 7 of us that stayed there till after 11 talking. We were there for over 5 hours! We had a lot of good conversations though and we had a lot of fun. Today, well technically now it's yesterday, I had 3 classes. I was nervous because I can't reach the elevator buttons in the buildings where 2 of my classes are. It all worked out though and I think this semester is going to go great. I had my computer class, then lunch with Matt and Bri, then French, and then the study of designers and forecasting. I came back to my room and was talking to my mom because I'm stressing out about money. I then got very upset because a lot has been on my mind lately and I was thinking how I would normally talk to Bethany about this stuff that's bothering me. So then I was really sad and kind of losing it because it's still rough. I started to feel better though after a little while. I decided to check Facebook and stuff when one of my new friends sent me a message asking if I wanted to watch Mean Girls, so the same group that was there for 5 hours yesterday was there again watching that. It was fun and I definitely needed it.
Well I think that's about all for now. I need to go to bed, I have to get up in 6 hours. I'm sure I'll think of more to write after I post this but it'll just have to wait till next time. Night!
~Cait :)
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Aug2, 2012
Hey, so I am currently sitting in bed, watching Pretty Little Liars, eating yogurt, and going though other people's blogs. I came across one person's and it kind of upset me. They were talking about how much they didn't like themselves and how they felt like a failure. It brought back all those feelings I had last year and years before. I've been feeling so much better this last year and I'm so grateful, but I have never come across someone feeling those same feelings at least not in current times. People are always like 'yeah I used to feel that way' or something along those lines but I always felt like they were just saying that to be nice or that it was a long time ago so how can they really understand since they were so young? Reading this blog made me realize I'm not alone. I feel so bad for this person because I know what it's like to be in that place. They are only seeing the negatives in their life. They need to see all the positives, they need to realize how great of a friend they are, they're funny, and super nice. I wish they would see all the great things that everyone else does. I hope they see this and feel at least a little better...That's all I have for this time, I'll try to write again soon!
~Cait:)
~Cait:)
Saturday, July 28, 2012
July28, 2012
Well, it's time for another long blog, warning any readers ahead of time. I guess if I did this more often they would be shorter, but I'm just so busy doing all this stuff over summer. You know, like sleeping, watching movies, sketching random crap, sleeping, watching more movies, procrastinating on getting anything on my to do list done, talking to Kesha on Facebook all day everyday, oh and did I mention sleeping? No seriously, I sleep A LOT. Anywho...
A lot has happened since I last wrote. If you've been reading, or if you know me, you know my best friend Bethany passed away last month. It's been extremely hard to deal with but I know she's in a better place. I miss her every day though. The other day I even started to text her...Even though it's hard dealing with the fact that she is no longer here, I have felt so different since then. Almost positive...I know this doesn't make sense, but it's like my depression problems are just gone now. Don't get me wrong, I still get upset when I think of Bethany, but that's it. It's like, when I realized this was all real, that someone could die at such a young age, someone who had so much happiness and love for everyone in the world, I realized life's too short to worry about the little things. I'm done being afraid to speak my mind and be who I want to be. I don't want to live with regrets or what ifs. So from now on I'm going to at least try to always be open and honest about what I want and how I feel.
There was also my 21st birthday. Oh yes, the day finally came. It was a blast of course. A bunch of us went to Bravo again, there were like 20 people there. Then, all but a few people went downtown Indy to go to the bars. I had originally planned on going to Bartini's (a dance club-ish type bar) and then to Howl at the Moon (which is more chill, there's dueling pianos and you just sit and watch), both fun and awesome but I wanted to go in that order because I didn't want to just sit there all night, and I knew if we went to Howl first no one would want to leave there...which is exactly what happened. I was extremely irritated no one listened to me, but I wanted to have a good time. So we all sat in Howl for a few hours, I liked it but it's not the way I wanted to spend my 21st. Your 21st is supposed to be crazy and exciting, ya know? So eventually my cousin Alyssa basically said 'it's your birthday let's go where you want to go'. So I told everyone I was leaving and they were welcome to come with, but they all just left, except Jake and Alyssa. I would say they all went home but from what I heard they all had a giant slumber party, without me...It's whatever, they missed out on a great time. We had a blast at Bartini's! My mom and her boyfriend met up with us there, they had been at a different bar, and we had a great time dancing and having people by me shots hahaha. OH! And there was this ridiculously cute Australian guy who was super nice and totally hitting on Alyssa haha. It was awesome. Then Jake left, and shortly after they started closing down the bar, so we left. My mom, her boyfriend, Alyssa and I stayed in a hotel down the street. I may or may not have thrown up all night...it was so gross.
For my birthday my mom got Meg and I Warped Tour tickets!! We Are The In Crowd, my favorite band, was there...but we missed them. It was so sad. They were the reason I wanted to go so bad. They were one of the first to play though. I missed their signing time too, by like 10 minutes. Later though, while going by some of the merch tables, I saw their drummer, Rob Chianelli, at theirs! I freaked! He signed the bag I bought with their name on it. It was amazing! We saw All Time Low, Taking Back Sunday, Pierce The Veil, and Yellowcard. They were all really good! We left after that though because we were so hot. It was a good sister bonding day. We had a lot of fun, or at least I did!
Then there was the Champion's Cup for Power Soccer. It was in Fort Wayne and it was from Friday-Sunday. I got to the hotel late Thursday night, and our first game was at 9 am the next morning. We lost this game, but then won our second game that afternoon. We then had a team dinner at Chad and Sean's, however, Jc and Natalie came too. It was pretty fun, and it was great seeing everyone again. Natalie and I then went to the end of the baseball game that some of the players from other teams and referees were at, and Jc and Allen came a little later. It was short but fun, the fireworks at the end were pretty freakin awesome. Quite possibly the best fireworks I've ever seen. The next day we tied both of our games. Kesha came to our second game! It was so good seeing her!! After getting back into my normal chair, we went to Taco Bell (where they still had chilli cheese burritos!!!!) and then to the zoo. The zoo was awesome! They had so many animals! My favorite part was the kangaroo walk through, it was a big enclosed area with a path you could go through on, with at least 20 kangaroos! They were all laying down a little bit from the path but they could've come right up to us! We then dropped Kesha off at home and then had the banquet and went shopping. Oh! I forgot to mention, at the hotel they had ridiculously squishy pillows that were absolutely amazing!! So while at the Kohls, Macy and I made it our mission to find pillows like them. So we tried out almost every pillow they had till we finally found some squishy pillows. The next day we had two more game, which we won both! So altogether we won 3, tied 2, and lost 1. We played better than we ever have, we actually looked like a team and that we were working together. Even though we did this well we got seventh place, not great but it keeps us in the division. Plus it was a lot of fun, at least for me, and I think we learned a lot and will be able to do better in the future.
Last weekend was Victoria's birthday! We had a surprise party for her at this cool little park/water park thing. I didn't think I was going to go but finally got it worked out and Meg drove me to meet Natalie. Natalie and I then went to Wal-Mart to get silly string, but neither of could reach it on the bottom shelf. I'm sure it would have been very entertaining if someone was watching us. I was trying to use things, such as one of those long lighters, to pull them closer. They were not only on the bottom shelf but they were in the back of a little box which was pushed back. It was complicated, and no one came by so we couldn't ask anyone for help. So we didn't get any. We then hung out at her parents' house with Jc and Allen till it was time to go to the park. The park was awesome! I mean it was small but it had this little water park thing, it didn't have a pool or anything but it had all sorts of things that were shooting out water, and it was all free! We really need something like that where I live, even I had fun there. It was a lot of fun and I think it really surprised Victoria, she may have known something was going on but not what or who was all going to be there. Then I went and saw her and Natalie's apartment, which I absolutely love! I really want one like it. I think it gave me some motivation to really work hard and graduate soon so I can get out there in the real world and have a place of my own like that.
I also think I'm starting to like someone...I have only told one person and she of course said go for it. As I was telling her though, I thought of someone else. I realized I have been waiting and hoping he'd change his mind and give me a chance, even though I knew that wasn't likely to happen. So I actually asked him. I normally don't do this kind of thing, or I start to and freak out and change my mind. I didn't this time though. I thought of Bethany and how she was always telling me to just tell people how I feel. Like I said in a previous paragraph, I don't want to live with any regrets and I'm sick of not speaking my mind. He told me we wouldn't ever be more than friends, but that we will always be great friends. At first I was a little upset, but then I felt better. After all, this is what I wanted and needed to hear. I'm so glad I talked to him, as stupid as it may have been, and I'm so glad that we're still such good friends. I really have the greatest friends in the world. I don't know what I'd do without them. Now, just because I got the nerve to talk to him about that doesn't mean I'm going to talk to this new guy. He makes me super happy every time I see him, and every time I get a text or something from him I can't help but smile. I don't think he has a clue, and I want to keep it that way, at least for a little while. I wish I could talk to Bethany about it to see what she thinks, but my luck she would just add him on Facebook and tell him herself hahaha, and if you what I'm talking about you know she would. She would tell me just to tell him and see what he says because you never know, but if any of you know me, you know I can't just do that haha. So I'll leave it be and just see what happens.
Wow looking over that, it's been a pretty busy month. It's been crazy at times. There have been some awesome memorable times, but there have also been some of the worst times I have ever been through. Losing Bethany was the roughest thing I've ever been through, but I know she's still here, always looking over me, helping me in the things I'm doing, and always giving me motivation to make the best out of this incredibly short life we have here on Earth.
"I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you, to make each day count." - Jack, Titanic
~Cait:)
A lot has happened since I last wrote. If you've been reading, or if you know me, you know my best friend Bethany passed away last month. It's been extremely hard to deal with but I know she's in a better place. I miss her every day though. The other day I even started to text her...Even though it's hard dealing with the fact that she is no longer here, I have felt so different since then. Almost positive...I know this doesn't make sense, but it's like my depression problems are just gone now. Don't get me wrong, I still get upset when I think of Bethany, but that's it. It's like, when I realized this was all real, that someone could die at such a young age, someone who had so much happiness and love for everyone in the world, I realized life's too short to worry about the little things. I'm done being afraid to speak my mind and be who I want to be. I don't want to live with regrets or what ifs. So from now on I'm going to at least try to always be open and honest about what I want and how I feel.
There was also my 21st birthday. Oh yes, the day finally came. It was a blast of course. A bunch of us went to Bravo again, there were like 20 people there. Then, all but a few people went downtown Indy to go to the bars. I had originally planned on going to Bartini's (a dance club-ish type bar) and then to Howl at the Moon (which is more chill, there's dueling pianos and you just sit and watch), both fun and awesome but I wanted to go in that order because I didn't want to just sit there all night, and I knew if we went to Howl first no one would want to leave there...which is exactly what happened. I was extremely irritated no one listened to me, but I wanted to have a good time. So we all sat in Howl for a few hours, I liked it but it's not the way I wanted to spend my 21st. Your 21st is supposed to be crazy and exciting, ya know? So eventually my cousin Alyssa basically said 'it's your birthday let's go where you want to go'. So I told everyone I was leaving and they were welcome to come with, but they all just left, except Jake and Alyssa. I would say they all went home but from what I heard they all had a giant slumber party, without me...It's whatever, they missed out on a great time. We had a blast at Bartini's! My mom and her boyfriend met up with us there, they had been at a different bar, and we had a great time dancing and having people by me shots hahaha. OH! And there was this ridiculously cute Australian guy who was super nice and totally hitting on Alyssa haha. It was awesome. Then Jake left, and shortly after they started closing down the bar, so we left. My mom, her boyfriend, Alyssa and I stayed in a hotel down the street. I may or may not have thrown up all night...it was so gross.
For my birthday my mom got Meg and I Warped Tour tickets!! We Are The In Crowd, my favorite band, was there...but we missed them. It was so sad. They were the reason I wanted to go so bad. They were one of the first to play though. I missed their signing time too, by like 10 minutes. Later though, while going by some of the merch tables, I saw their drummer, Rob Chianelli, at theirs! I freaked! He signed the bag I bought with their name on it. It was amazing! We saw All Time Low, Taking Back Sunday, Pierce The Veil, and Yellowcard. They were all really good! We left after that though because we were so hot. It was a good sister bonding day. We had a lot of fun, or at least I did!
Then there was the Champion's Cup for Power Soccer. It was in Fort Wayne and it was from Friday-Sunday. I got to the hotel late Thursday night, and our first game was at 9 am the next morning. We lost this game, but then won our second game that afternoon. We then had a team dinner at Chad and Sean's, however, Jc and Natalie came too. It was pretty fun, and it was great seeing everyone again. Natalie and I then went to the end of the baseball game that some of the players from other teams and referees were at, and Jc and Allen came a little later. It was short but fun, the fireworks at the end were pretty freakin awesome. Quite possibly the best fireworks I've ever seen. The next day we tied both of our games. Kesha came to our second game! It was so good seeing her!! After getting back into my normal chair, we went to Taco Bell (where they still had chilli cheese burritos!!!!) and then to the zoo. The zoo was awesome! They had so many animals! My favorite part was the kangaroo walk through, it was a big enclosed area with a path you could go through on, with at least 20 kangaroos! They were all laying down a little bit from the path but they could've come right up to us! We then dropped Kesha off at home and then had the banquet and went shopping. Oh! I forgot to mention, at the hotel they had ridiculously squishy pillows that were absolutely amazing!! So while at the Kohls, Macy and I made it our mission to find pillows like them. So we tried out almost every pillow they had till we finally found some squishy pillows. The next day we had two more game, which we won both! So altogether we won 3, tied 2, and lost 1. We played better than we ever have, we actually looked like a team and that we were working together. Even though we did this well we got seventh place, not great but it keeps us in the division. Plus it was a lot of fun, at least for me, and I think we learned a lot and will be able to do better in the future.
Last weekend was Victoria's birthday! We had a surprise party for her at this cool little park/water park thing. I didn't think I was going to go but finally got it worked out and Meg drove me to meet Natalie. Natalie and I then went to Wal-Mart to get silly string, but neither of could reach it on the bottom shelf. I'm sure it would have been very entertaining if someone was watching us. I was trying to use things, such as one of those long lighters, to pull them closer. They were not only on the bottom shelf but they were in the back of a little box which was pushed back. It was complicated, and no one came by so we couldn't ask anyone for help. So we didn't get any. We then hung out at her parents' house with Jc and Allen till it was time to go to the park. The park was awesome! I mean it was small but it had this little water park thing, it didn't have a pool or anything but it had all sorts of things that were shooting out water, and it was all free! We really need something like that where I live, even I had fun there. It was a lot of fun and I think it really surprised Victoria, she may have known something was going on but not what or who was all going to be there. Then I went and saw her and Natalie's apartment, which I absolutely love! I really want one like it. I think it gave me some motivation to really work hard and graduate soon so I can get out there in the real world and have a place of my own like that.
I also think I'm starting to like someone...I have only told one person and she of course said go for it. As I was telling her though, I thought of someone else. I realized I have been waiting and hoping he'd change his mind and give me a chance, even though I knew that wasn't likely to happen. So I actually asked him. I normally don't do this kind of thing, or I start to and freak out and change my mind. I didn't this time though. I thought of Bethany and how she was always telling me to just tell people how I feel. Like I said in a previous paragraph, I don't want to live with any regrets and I'm sick of not speaking my mind. He told me we wouldn't ever be more than friends, but that we will always be great friends. At first I was a little upset, but then I felt better. After all, this is what I wanted and needed to hear. I'm so glad I talked to him, as stupid as it may have been, and I'm so glad that we're still such good friends. I really have the greatest friends in the world. I don't know what I'd do without them. Now, just because I got the nerve to talk to him about that doesn't mean I'm going to talk to this new guy. He makes me super happy every time I see him, and every time I get a text or something from him I can't help but smile. I don't think he has a clue, and I want to keep it that way, at least for a little while. I wish I could talk to Bethany about it to see what she thinks, but my luck she would just add him on Facebook and tell him herself hahaha, and if you what I'm talking about you know she would. She would tell me just to tell him and see what he says because you never know, but if any of you know me, you know I can't just do that haha. So I'll leave it be and just see what happens.
Wow looking over that, it's been a pretty busy month. It's been crazy at times. There have been some awesome memorable times, but there have also been some of the worst times I have ever been through. Losing Bethany was the roughest thing I've ever been through, but I know she's still here, always looking over me, helping me in the things I'm doing, and always giving me motivation to make the best out of this incredibly short life we have here on Earth.
"I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you, to make each day count." - Jack, Titanic
~Cait:)
Thursday, June 28, 2012
June28, 2012
I've been through a lot of crap in my life but this is the roughest thing I've ever had to deal with. My best friend, Bethany Marie Deane, passed away last night around 7 pm. She also had SMA, but in the last few years had grown significantly weaker and was constantly getting sick. I know that she is no longer in pain and suffering. I know I'm being selfish by wanting her here, but I guess that's normal. It just hurts so bad...I get better for a few but then it comes again at full force. It feels like someone's ripping out my heart and squeezing my lungs to the point where I can't hardly breathe. I find myself just staring out into space and not being able to focus. Tomorrow is my 21st birthday and I'm having dinner with a bunch of friends and then going downtown Indy, but honestly I don't know how fun I'll be. I'm afraid as soon as I see them I'm going to lose it and start crying again. I'm not sure how it's going to go. I know if Bethany were here she would tell me to stop being sad and have fun on my birthday. So I'm going to try but I think it's going to take a while for me to get back to normal...
~Cait
~Cait
Thursday, June 7, 2012
June6, 2012
I'm officially the worst blogger ever, not that anyone probably reads this anyway, but whatever I'm back now! It was a crazy semester but we had some great times as usual. We had some birthdays, where everyone got together, we watched more movies than one can count, there was a stuffed animal wedding, we ate a lot of Mexican food, and had a blast in Indy during Superbowl weekend to name a few things. It was all a lot of fun. I also got a lot more involved on campus. I continued with hall council and power soccer, but I also became a rep for RHA. Superbowl weekend was by far one of the greatest weekends! It was so fun! The Thursday night of that weekend, Donelle, Tyler and I went to the VH1 Pepsi Fan Jam concert at the fairgrounds. It was B.O.B., Gym Class Heroes and The All-American Rejects, with special guest Neon Hitch and Adam Levine!! We then went to IHOP afterwards so we didn't get home till after 1 am, then we got up and Tyler and I left at 5 to go to The Today Show. Gym Class Heroes, Adam Levine, and Neon Hitch were there. It was downtown Indy. We got there like an hour before it started but there were already so many people there. I couldn't see a thing, so Tyler went to see what else was going on or something and came back and told me he walked right next to Adam Levine! If only I had gone with him! So we went back to where he saw him, it was this little area back behind/between some buildings. It was between the back of the building that went out to The Today Show, the place where they were doing interviews for ESPN, and the VIP Lounge where celebs could wait to go to these different things. So we were where they had to walk to get from one to another. We saw a few football players and coaches, (I'm not really sure who), Jimmy Fallon, and Adam Sandler!! We then walked around downtown for a few, looking at all the Superbowl stuff, it was pretty cool. We went back to school after that and relaxed the rest of the day. The next day we were going to get Starbucks and stuff when Donelle found out that Neil Patrick Harris was in Indy. She was freaking out, I was kind of too on the inside. So a bunch of us decided to go back to Indy to try and find him. I didn't go downtown with them though, I actually went to the CMT Fan Jam concert thing with Tyler (he got free tickets), we dropped them all off before we went. We had to wait in the freezing rain for what seemed like hours, but it was worth it. It was a small local band first that was pretty good, and then Sugar Ray! I didn't know they were going to be there! They were awesome! I think I was one of the only people who was really excited for them but I didn't care, I loved them when I was younger! Then it was the actual CMT concert, which was Carrie Underwood and Steven Tyler. They sang mash-ups of their songs together, it was surprisingly really good! Then we picked everyone up and went back to our everyday lives, the excitement was over. We had a lot of fun over the semester. I have the greatest friends ever. I am so lucky to have them all in my life. I honestly don't know what I would do without them. They're all wonderful, and now that it's summer I'm missing them a lot. Hopefully most of them get to go to my birthday dinner in a couple weeks! Well this blog is awkwardly long now so if you're still reading this, you should really go find something else to do, my life is not that interesting, really it isn't. So go now and I'll stop writing. Bye!
~Cait :)
~Cait :)
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